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There are no pretty pictures in this post, FYI.

Upon watching my youtube tutorials, many of you may have noticed that something isn’t quite right with my left eye. I brushed off countless comments (youtube can be a lovely place like that) because it was something we intended on fixing. Today I received some less than fantastic news, fckn awful news to be frank; I’ve cried till there is nothing left, I’ve analysed till my head hurt and now, I’m going to write a post.

And broadcast it to thousands of people. How therapeutic.

Just under a year ago, I elected to have surgery to correct my sporadic Strabismus or, in normal people terms, the muscular misalignment of my left eye. The lazy eye wasn’t glaringly obvious to you guys but it was enough to confuse my brain: I was frequently disorientated, nauseated and ultimately, I stopped driving and attending uni lectures. It was, without a doubt, ruining my life.

Strabismus surgery is considered an uncomplicated, routine surgery. I was in the hands of one of Australia’s top medical professionals but nobody could have predicted that days after surgery, I would develop an extremely rare complication – a massive black spot in my sclera (white of the eye). The actual biology behind this complication is still relatively unknown and I quickly became a bit of a circus spectacle; every doctor has oohed and ahhed and offered their 2 cents.

My specialist assured me that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. We tried laser therapy which was unsuccessful, there was one last option: A scleral graft (patching over the area with sclera obtained from a young donor). My appointment was booked for the 27th of March and everything was going to be okay, but I decided to get a second opinion because I ONLY HAVE TWO EYES y’know.

The second eye specialist said, in her words – This is incredibly serious. Do you have a known auto-immune disease? Have you been exposed to radiation? You’re lucky to have your eye. Who is to say this won’t happen again? Personally, I wouldn’t operate on you if you offered me a million dollars.

You’re lucky to have your eye. This is incredibly serious. Young doner. You’re lucky to have your eye. I kept repeating it to myself until I fell apart in the foyer, convulsing and sobbing like a child. When it comes to critical organs like your heart or your brain or your eyes, you opt for the most conservative opinion; you don’t take significant and foreseeable risks with your goddamn eyes… So I cancelled the surgery.

I cried some more. Call me ungrateful, call me vain, I don’t care. I don’t want to be memorable for a defect. I don’t want my most distinguishable feature to be a flaw. I don’t want to be that girl who has that black spot in her eye. I don’t want to feel like I disgust people. The nature of what I do here and on youtube really heightens these emotions.

So the future is scary and unknown. I could heal further, I could not. I was hoping to get Lasik sometime in the future, but now that may not be an option. Cherish your health and cherish your eyes, because I’ve learnt that medical science is no miracle worker. You can have access to top professionals and shell out as much cash as you want and it may not be enough.

If you are reading this and happen to be an eye specialist, you’re welcome to chime in. Finally, I don’t say this often enough but I really love you guys. I’m so grateful that you’ve read my posts and watched my videos throughout the ordeal. I feel like I’m talking to an old friend.


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  1. I’m pissed by some of the annoying comments you’ve received in regards to your peepers. Just know you have a mass of people (including myself) who love you for who you are. Your peepers are sexy as F*CK. it’s not noticeable (even in person). The people who feel the need to make a comment on it are always feel the need to point a flaw and have nothing else better to do.

    Just know I’m a txt msg away.


  2. I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been put through this emotional and physical turmoil. Easier said than done, but don’t listen to the haters. I didn’t think about your eye for one second when I started watching your videos. I thought, what a beautiful, talented and very inspired person you are. No one who really matters in your life will think anything else. Once the shock of it all wears off, I hope you’ll start feeling better soon!

    All the best to you!

    1. You’re totally right, Heather. I think the whole health scare really shocked me, it’s hard to feel normal when you’ve consistently told you’re abnormal. I woke up today and felt a little more like myself. xx

  3. It’s perfectly fine to freak out over this. It’s your DAMN EYES. Of course it’s a big deal and worth getting MULTIPLE opinions over. I’m sorry the results weren’t what you wanted but just know that after the first time I saw your eye, I got over it and just continued watching your videos as usual. You’re a very lovely person and I hope things work out soon.

    1. Yeah, some people seem to think I need perspective. It’s been a long journey with my eyes, my sight is a pretty big deal to me. I’m sure things will work themselves out 🙂 x

  4. Ahh Karima – you are one of my favorite people. I’m sure it took a lot out of you to come out and narrate what’s been going on with you – even though your private life is YOUR private life and no one else’s business. I am so sorry you have had many days of sobbing and terror trying to figure out what to do… my dad is an ophthalmologist but I barely see him because my parents have been separated for +9 years. Still, whenever he comes back again I’ll ask him what he thinks… (since you want to hear professionals’ thoughts). Know that we love you, we support you, and heck, and I don’t focus on the dark area on the inner corner of your eye because you are SO BEAUTIFUL, so TALENTED and so CHARMING, we look beyond a “defect”.

    1. I rarely speak on a personal level but I wanted people to know that I’ve looked into everything and I’ll keep looking. People have been mostly supportive and understanding, I’m so humbled. xx

  5. I’m so sorry to hear about this 🙁 and don’t feel vain for getting upset, it’s perfectly reasonable to feel that way. <33 you've always been an inspiration (via mua, YouTube, and your blog) so don't let people picking one thing out get you down.

  6. Your eyes are beautiful. Your ‘black spot’ is barely noticeable, because when I see your videos, I see a funny, charismatic girl with a talent for makeup and a beautiful face as a whole. Go with your gut on the surgery – you only have 2 eyes! Lots of love xx

  7. Dear Karima,
    You are first of all, beautiful, no matter what. Take care of your eye, if you felt uncertain about the outcome, it was good to cancel another surgery. We know shit happens, but I hope your original problem is ok. If this black spot doesn’t give health issues, esthetics is just that – looks. I was born with a condition that was written all over my face, red vein clutters. Mostly gone after years and years of painful treatments. I’m now 40; they are not completely gone, I have veins that look like bad rosacea and whatever, but I don’t care. I use foundation, bb/cc cream, not dealing with concealing everything. You are lovely, funny, talented and overall gorgeous, so don’t worry about that black spot. I hope you and your eye are otherwise ok. This will be your unique feature! Love, Bernadett

  8. Hello Karima, just to let you know, i honestly share your pain. I do pray and hope that your eye will be better. And i honestly think that you’re one of the most beautiful woman i’ve ever seen. Feel better soon.

  9. My god! I thought I was alone with being paranoid people were looking at the spot in my eye. I’ve been in a similar situation for years with a spot in my eye. I think I have just grown to not particularly care anymore and would rather not risk being blinded by a surgery.
    Anyway, so many people love watching/reading your youtube and blog posts so who cares really? You’re absolutely amazing with or without the spot xx

  10. Hi Karimma.

    Really sorry about your condition and hope you heal as well as you can hope for. I understand your plight. I was diagnosed with a rare blood condition and now living with the aftermath. My vision has been affected and now my right over compensates so I get double vision every time I try to focus close up. Seriously eye makeup is a nightmare. I get inspired but then I can’t apply makeup to my exacting standard. Anyhow enough woe is me. I think you should put a link in your YouTube bio to this post which means you don’t have to address it and you can focus on your passion. Good luck 🙂

  11. Dear Karima,
    to be honest, I have followed your blog for the past few months and seeing your videos as well but until reading this post, I have never noticed something ‘wrong’ with your eye.
    So all those comments on youtube.. geez some people can be so inconsiderate..
    But you are beautiful just the way you are now, don’t let some people put you down..
    About the surgery, do whatever your heart tells you.. health and safety first, but if your mind and soul are happy I am a strong believer that your body will be ‘happy’ as well 🙂

  12. In my opinion you are so beautiful girl and that black spot in your eye look so freaking cool, it’s like little freckle, it makes you so unique! I adore your personality,your intelligence! You are an amazing, smart young woman Karima and that black little spot in my eyes make you even more attractive! Brush off what ppl say you are unique and beautiful!

    Warmest regards from Sweden

    ~ Aila

  13. Karima – I’m not going to lie, when I saw the title of this I was excited to have my curiosity satiated as to what the black spot in your eye is. But then I got finished reading this post and I realized it didn’t really change anything… I didn’t feel an overwhelming sense of “ah, finally!”. Truly, at the end of all of this.. of people’s rude comments or my own curiosity or a doctors diagnosis (or misdiagnosis!).. it’s your character that sticks with me. Your cheerfulness in your videos, your quirky jokes here and there, your willingness to put yourself out there on the vast and critiquing world that is the internet just so you can share in our mutual love of makeup!
    I think the emphasis our society puts on outward appearance and beauty is an immense handicap on our ability to truly be human and interact with one another. One could have acne all over their face or one could be immensely beautiful and yet have a black spot in her eye, yet either way, society – myself included – we are all so quick to notice those visual things that stand out to us first, then rank the person accordingly. This habit, this judgement, it’s a huge hinderance on our ability to come together with people. Whether it’s a skin colour or a man who beautifies himself to express who he feels he really is – we see the differences rather than the bare bones that you and me and you and you and everyone else on this planet are HUMAN, are the same species, have been created to be more than the visual.

    So from me, someone who is trying to break this judgemental habit: know that who you are as a fellow human, as a woman of great inner strength and a lovely personality, is not based on some black spot in your eye. And know that even if that black spot were to go away some day in the future, who you are as that same human, woman, great inner strength, lovely personality – all of it doesn’t change, whether said black spot is there or not!

  14. I’m sorry to hear what you’ve had to go through but if your problems of nausea and disorientation are gone and you’ve improved your life quality I’ll say it was worthy. Besides, it’s not a flaw, it’s a story and it makes you unique. It doesn’t define you at all, you are gorgeous and don’t let people tell you otherwise

  15. Karima, you’re even more of an inspiration now than ever before. We all have flaws and in the day to day people don’t bring them to our attention, but the internet. Well, that’s a whole other story. You are brave to put yourself out there! I have uneven eyelids and regardless of who thinks I’m beautiful or how often someone may tell me I’m pretty that is all I see. For you, someone who is completely gorgeous, to share your insecurity with us helps me feel more confident in myself. We all have our “flaws” and things we dislike and focus on, but it makes us who we are! You are beautiful through and through and I’m glad you opted out of the risky surgery. Stay healthy and happy! Thank you again from the bottom of my heart!

  16. Whenever I watch your video I always notice the black spot on your eys but I dont give a damn thing about it because you are so beautiful! Your eyes your skin just perfect! Ignore all the harsh comment, they are the keyboard worriors who doesn’t have balls. Cherish your look and live your live happily girl!

  17. Karima dear, I’ve been watching your videos for some time. I knew you had a problem with your eye but never knew what it was (and franky it wasn’t my business to know). I hadn’t noticed any difference before/after surgery so I just assumed it was Lasik or something of that sort. You are beautiful, inside and out, and this problem, however obvious it might be to you, is something that most people don’t even notice. I know it’s a big deal for you and I wish you can find a way to cope with it.
    Lots of hugs.

  18. I’m sorry for your problem, Karima. Probably isn´t much consolation, but I’m a long time behind the screen watching a lot of girls talk about makeup and beauty. And to me, you’re not the girl with the black spot in her eye. Absolutly. For me, you’re the gorgeous, talented, funny and ironic (in equal parts) Karima!!!!!. Million Kisses!!!

  19. Lovely Karima.

    I just wanted to say firstly well done on cancelling the surgery- its just not worth the risk.
    After reading this post I just had to talk to you. I understand how you are so upset but you are so brave, please don’t cry any more, it will get better I promise.
    You are so incredibly beautiful and your eye does not hinder that in anyway. And I mean that. I love your youtube channel as well as your just so witty and charming its just a joy to watch.

    Instead of looking at your eye and being upset by it, make a point every time you look at it by saying to yourself- thats the mark in my eye that lets me know I can still see. I still have my vision and i’ve been through the wars with it, so let that mark be a positive reminder.
    I know how annoying it is when people say things, I have a couple scars on my forehead- they bothered me when I was little so I always had a fringe, but after deciding to grow my hair, people started to comment…when I was younger I cared (I got them when I was about 6, im now 23) and I would feel crappy about it then I was like well im not going to have a fringe forever (really REALLY not a good look for me) and then it was just like….well its never going to change…and hey maybe its kinda cool in a way! Now I just dont evvvvver notice them. If ive been squinting in the sun I kinda do but not really. People can say things here and there but its like water off a ducks back. I just dont want you to be hurt, please just rest assured you wont feel like this for long. Health is the most important thing. I got TB a couple of years ago (I know- how old school of me!) no ones really sure how but my lungs were really damaged (even though im totally fine now) I know I never really had a physical mark of TB, but I can so relate to everything your writing. Everything gets better. People get bored of asking and you are still healthy, young, beautiful and clever. Don’t hate what isnt in your power to change

    All my love

  20. Karima,

    The last video I watched of yours I noticed the black circle around your iris and I thought, ‘I wonder how she got that?’ But I also thought that it looked cool and different. It’s awesome to have some extra character. Kate Bosworth rocks the odd eyes look. I know it’s hard to always try and keep positive about things when there are so many people who use the anominity of the internet to say harsh words, but know there are people who really love what you do and appreciate your work. It’s perfectly reasonable to panic over something as valuable as your sight and obviously you need to make this decision with great thought. I’m glad your felt you could share this with us. Unfortunately there will continue to be assholes out there but you can come back to all these positive messages and focus on these.

  21. Hi, Karima. I don’t usually leave comments in posts but I find it necessary today. You can’t let that tiny spot be so important in your life, it doesn’t make a difference, you’re a pretty eyed girl with or without it!!

    Don’t let comments that refer to it make you sad, sometimes people just asks as they are worried, sometimes they are simply curious, but I don’t think they intended to hurt you, and they probably didn’t know this was so important to you.

    I can understand how you feel about it, I have a spot on my eye since I was 8 (kind of an “eye freckle”, it’s called Nevus of Ota), and at the beginning I was always upset with myself and with people who asked “hey, what’s wrong with your eye?? D: ” but then I ended up realising that it’s just another feature in me, I accepted it and so life goes on! I could have surgery on it, but I prefer not to do it because as you know, it’s a risk, and it doesn’t bother me anymore. I would only have surgery if it was a real health problem.

    I’m sure and I hope you’ll find a non-agressive solution for your issue. At least the main problem, your Strabismus, was fixed, and you can have a normal life now, so again, my advice is: don’t let an aesthetic thing be such a big deal! Because that tiny eye spot is unnoticeable within all the beauty you’ve got 🙂 (seriously, it’s a lot more unnoticeable than you think ;))


  22. I don’t have any words of wisdom, I just wanted to say that I completely feel for you. I understand how this could be so upsetting on so many levels. You are beautiful and lovely and radiant and so funny. Take care.

  23. Dear Karima
    You don’t owe anybody in the whole damn world an explanation regarding your eye or any other health/personal issues. I’m not gonna sit here and reassure you of your looks (c’mon we all know you are beautiful) or offer you some platitudes. Nobody has the right to judge your feeling or decisions.
    In an attempt to make you feel a wee bit better, here is my eye horror story. I now have permanent partial blindness in my left eye, with frequent temporary flashes in both eyes. This is due to an extremely rare (well, my mum always did say I was special) neurological disorder. Due to the rarity, I was a prized possession (or at least, my brain was) of the teaching hospital I stayed at. Student doctors prodding and shining lights and arguing over who got to write up this juicy case …. pure bliss!
    This all began when I was a teenager and I started to have multiple seizures and eventually I had a stroke. I remember one charming doctor warning that nobody could predict my recovery, I could even possibly be left “vegetative” in the long run. My response was one of horror, of course. “Oh godno…Anything but a cabbage!” (I was always very partial to aubergines, myself.)
    Well, to summarise, I got through all that, my eyes are still messed up, and my left eye does this freaky twitch thing once in a while. ( As an aside, this twitch actually led me to my boyfriend, as he thought I was winking at him sexily and, er, repeatedly.)
    However, I can live with the blindness and all that comes with it, because my brain is better now. Hopefully your vision has improved and that’s all that should matter. If I can offer one piece of advice ( feel free to ignore): Don’t get a second medical opinion. Get a third, fourth and fiftieth opinion, if need be. If I had only listened to my first ever neurologist …. I would still be in hospital now, I truly believe that.
    Wishing you only the best,

    1. Mimi, This comment wins my favourite comment of all time.
      Seriously, I’m in awe of your story. I read it out aloud to my significant other, what an incredible recount.

      I hope my health issues don’t seem trivial to you in comparison, I suffered partial blindness as a child also. I regained sight and was then cross eyed and back and forth, back and forth. We were ALSO told ‘There is nothing that can be done for your child, she will continue to deteriorate’
      I’ve discovered that many health care professionals actually have shocking bed side manners 😛
      I’m so glad to hear you managed to overcome part of your condition! Health is really the main thing and it’s so precious, this experience really drilled that into me. For the record, I would do the procedure all over again because I can drive and go to uni and leave my bed and LIVE and stuff.

      I am absolutely seeking a fourth and fifth opinion (got a third opinion today too, equally alarmist). It’s all a bit of a game though, the specialists are giving their best guesses and experimental solutions (where I’m the guinea pig, do.not.want). I guess we’re lucky that we live in this day and age though, things may have been different for you and I 100 years ago.

      I just wanted to thank you for taking the time to write this comment. It was damn inspiring and your humour made me laugh out loud, you can take over this blog now 😉
      xxkarima (also partial to aubergines)

  24. i am so sorry to hear your news. i hope you feel better soon. you’re so beautiful thou. i hope you find your strength . i truly hope you will feel better soon .

  25. Honestly, I remember when you first got your surgery and said to excuse you’re eye. It took me a long time to even figure out what you were talking about. Even now, I barely even see it. Either way people are rude and instead of concerning themselves with nothing they should be concerning themselves with how talented, funny, and sweet you are. Obviously you’re health comes first and you are allowed to freak out about it. Just know that there are thousands of us that appreciate your talent and charm and will continue to support you no matter what happens.

  26. Hello karima
    I’ve watched all of your videos and I never noticed your eye. I love watching you do makeup and think your beautiful. I’m so sorry about your recent health issues but trust me when I say only people that are looking for something to pick on usually out of jealousy noticed. We love you

  27. I’m a recently follower of yours on instagram (not sure how I came across your page but I was stunned by how beautiful you were and how lovely your make up was). I noticed your eye after a few pictures but tbh I completely forgot about it and if I saw it again, I’d just wander what is was for a moment, and carry on. I recently watched a few of your videos and I can see that it’s more noticeable on camera – please don’t mistake me for one of those people who just watches videos and comments horrible things because it’s behind a computer screen. I completely understand that you are self conscious about your eye and it’s something that might bother you, and I say this coming from another person who has a facial characteristic that no doctor has been able to explain, and in all honesty it’s much more unusual than yours. When I was younger it really got me down and people would laugh or make comments, but now that I’m older (I’m 22) I really don’t mind much and I’ve just chosen to accept it, despite surgery being an option (but similar to yours it was unprecedented and therefore difficult to predict what may happen). I say this because I want you to know that I can relate to your situation, however I do think it’s not the best approach to take by saying that you don’t want to be remembered for your ‘flaw’ or ‘defect’ – in all honesty I find that slightly insulting because it insinuates that that’s what I or every other person on this earth who has an unusual feature is ‘flawed’ and it’s what people would remember us by. I know you don’t mean it as an insult but your eye is barely comparable to the fact that you are actually stunning – what about all the people who aren’t and have things ‘wrong’ with them? I think it’s unfortunate that as someone who has a platform to express themselves and be heard by thousands of people, many of whom admire you and may be impressionable, you’re really sending out a bad message. Being slightly vain about it isn’t a bad thing, it’s very understandable, but the things you say are really quite horrible and harsh not only to yourself, but to others too. People who can relate to you could have found comfort had you sent out a different message, a positive one, perhaps saying ‘hey yes there’s something wrong with my eye – for all of you who are curious this is what happened and i guess i’ll have to live with it – no one’s perfect, right?’ – but instead you have done what so many people in society, which leads to people being insecure about things like this.

    I hope you understand that this is coming from an honest place, and I don’t mean to offend or add to the difficult time you are facing, but you really should re assess how you view your situation. Things could be a lot worse, and you should embrace your characteristics no matter how ‘flawed’ you may consider them.


    1. Hey there,
      I do believe your comment is genuine and I don’t think you’re a horrible commenter. I apologise if you took offence to portions of my post, that was not my intention at all. I do have a different perspective though.

      If I had come here and said ‘hey yes there’s something wrong with my eye – for all of you who are curious this is what happened and i guess i’ll have to live with it – no one’s perfect, right?’, that wouldn’t have been an accurate representation of how I feel right now, it would have been an artificial front (especially considering this is a health issue).

      I think a lot people who have developed a ‘flaw’ feel these things, we ask ourselves if we’ll be subject to judgement or whether the flaw will become part of our identity. Why not talk about it? It’s normal to feel this way. If someone else out there is having similar thoughts, I want them to know they’re not alone.

      It would appear that many think this post is about the spot on my eye or the youtube comments and it’s really not. Today I questioned whether I may have an auto immune disease or whether my eye condition is far more dangerous that I had originally thought.
      I hope this clarifies my position. xx

  28. Karima,
    seriously, there are idiots (sorry guys but you deserved that one!) out there, and you shouldn’t shed a tear about it.

    You are gorgeous, with or without that small spot, which I remember noticing once, but then I just went on appreciating everything else (your cheek bones, the shape of your eyes, your gorgeously shaped lips, do I sound a little creepy? LOL, I don’t care 😉 )

    Sometimes I think we are a bit too much concentrated on the small imperfections and forget to see the whole picture, which becomes even more perfect and unique with that small something.

    All I would like to say, I think your decision about not taking the risk of loosing an eye just to get rid of a small black spot is very right. Try to see this thing you hate as a feature of yours, like your special thing, which makes you unique, and please don’t listen to idiots. Keep up showing us your pretty face and stunning makeup, and keep on inspiring us.

  29. Dear Karima,
    you are one of the most talented girls on YouTube. This Cindy-Crawford spot in your eye makes you even more attractive, more special…You are too beautiful and by far too smart to let any negative comment drag you down! I wouldn´t want to miss one of your thorough and funny make up blogs/videos. Thanx for all your work, keep it up & all the best for you, Tina

  30. If anything, briefly noticing your eye after your surgery drew me in even more to see more of your work. I say briefly because I saw past it almost immediately, it hasn’t changed anything that makes you talented, personable, or beautiful, it’s just a small part of a long journey that will help tell your story. Anyone who matters sees and loves you for you.

  31. You are stunningly beautiful and have such a talent with makeup application. Please do not let others take away from your charismatic and humorous outlook on makeup.

  32. Dear Karima,
    I’m going to repeat what all of the comments have already said below: you are beautiful, funny, intelligent, and talented. You will never be memorable for being that girl with the spot on her eye. I hope you will find a way to feel better!

  33. Oh Karina, I am so sorry for all the rude/thoughtless/ignorant comments on youtube. I got a bit teary from reading your post, and will remember to cherish my health! I am no eye specialist so I won’t say whether you should or shouldn’t try to do something about your eye but I think you are one of the most talented and beautiful youtubers, ever. Hope you don’t let the internet weirdos bring you down, I honestly didn’t even notice anything until I read a rude comment. Xx

  34. Only to let you know, although it will probably not help, that any time I feel scared, lonely and confused, as you are feeling know, the thought of a person like you existing and sharing her light to brighten the world and its darkness, makes me feel better and relievs me. It is a great, beautiful gift you have been blessed with: making people feel better with your mere existence. Consider this, please, when you are in distress. No black spot could ever fault your inner and external beauty, because it is absolutely flawless and will always be, non matter what. We love you back sweetie, please try and take some strenght out of it, because there’s nothing more powerful than love. a big big hug XXX Anna

  35. Hi karima,

    You are gorgeous and I hope you will be able to stay strong despite everything. I will be praying for you.

  36. So sorry to hear about this. Consider yourself hugged really, really tight.
    You’re so talented, smart and funny, such a pleasure to see on my dashboard, I can hardly believe people could focus on such a small detail (I know it doesn’t feel so small for you right now but it is for me and, I think, for pretty much everyone esle on YT that doesn’t feel the need to push someone else down for sport as well).
    Stay strong <3 *hugs some more*

    1. Thanks for all your hugs 🙂 To be quite frank, I film my videos and take my photos in angles that minimise the visibility of the discolouration. Not because I’m ashamed, I just don’t want it to distract from the makeup (that’s why I’m here, after all).
      I do find that elaborate eye makeup makes it less noticeable 😛 In case I needed another excuse to go all out! Thanks for your kind words 🙂 x

  37. Dearest Karima, I think you made the right decision. This little black spot on your eye is really no big deal when I watch your pics or see you on YouTube. I’d never think of you as the girl with the black patch on the eye when there is so much more to you!
    Have you seen actress Daniela Ruah, who has a black veil all over one eye? She’s gorgeous and successful nevertheless even though it’s very much noticeable.
    You have your eye, indeed, that’s the most important thing. So now you can take your time, see other doctors, wait a few years for surgery to improve (those things evolve so fast nowadays!), think a lot about it… there is no rush. And that black patch does not define who you are, and certainly doesn’t make you any less gorgeous.

    1. Hey Mariella 🙂
      I just googled Daniela Ruah, I think she has a birthmark on her eye but it’s a very similar discolouration to mine (although mine is situated on the inner corner). She is absolutely gorgeous, regardless.
      I do have my eyes! I’m even more thankful to have them, in light of this new information. I’m just going to take my time and see what happens. I’d be very hesitant to have any more surgery given that I heal unusually, but maybe a non-surgical option will present itself.
      As always, thank you for your comment 🙂

  38. Hi Karima. First time I post a comment, and excuse my french ; English is not my native language.
    Honestly, the little of brown in your eye, when I first watched a video and noticed, I thought “oh, a kind of beauty spot in the white of the eye !”. I may sound like a 10 years old, no, I’m 24, I promise ! I have beauty spots everywhere, even in the green of my eyes. So I just figured that in the color of the eye, or in the white, it was kinda the same thing.
    Anyway. I think that as long as you health isn’t in danger, you should not worry a minute about this spot. I mean, I’m not sure I get the whole thing you’re saying about the change of situation of the cancelled surgery (I understood, as the French girl that I am, that some people told you it can be “deleted”, and on a second opinion, somebody else told you to NEVER TOUCH IT. But if I got it ; as long as you don’t touch it, nothing can happen ?).
    But if your struggle is also about the fact that you may keep this spot forever, I mean, really ? You don’t care ! It actually is THE thing that makes you different. Some have big nose, some have like Dumbo ears, you know. This little spot is kinda cute :3
    As long as it’s not a threat to your health of course. And I really do hope I understood your story right and that the major problem is that you should never try to touch this little mark.

  39. How timely. Yesterday I had a conversation with myself about you. I was looking at your Rouge Terrybly photos and I was jealous of how beautiful you are. Jealousy is an ugly emotion so I always try to stamp it out whenever I feel it…Sometimes I’m successful, sometimes not.

    Yesterday I thought you were beautiful, today I think you are extraordinary.

    1. <3 Nobody is perfect. I think it's important to recognise it, we all have our struggles - whether it be health or insecurity or whatever!
      I'm so thankful for your kind words. I really appreciate it. xx

  40. I am definitely not an eye specialist, but I had a really scary eye problem earlier this year – I had a black spot in the center of my vision in one of my eyes, and I was worried that it was early onset macular degeneration and I would go blind.

    I was lucky – it turned out to be a small injury that healed – but it was so scary. I’m so sorry you are having a hard time, but I definitely understand while you chose to cancel the surgery – I wouldn’t risk it either.

    <3 <3

    1. Eye problems are horrifying, I can totally relate. The possibility of losing my sight is one of the scariest things I’ve encountered. I’m so glad that your vision sorted itself out! I hope you had a party 😀

  41. I had LASIK done a few years ago, but it was one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make. I mean, it’s your eyes. It’s your vision. I’d like to think that I’m a strong person, but I honestly don’t know how I would manage if faced with losing my ability to look on this beautiful, flawed world. Luckily for me, my surgery worked out perfectly, but I am also grateful every day that I have my sight and respect immensely the people who function just fine without it. They are better people than I.

    But that’s not to say that vanity isn’t important, either. I inherited my dad’s mole-y gene, and I grew up with very prominent moles above my right eyebrow, among other places. I’ve had doctors ask me if I ever considered having them removed, “just for aesthetic reasons,” and had people scoff at me when I mentioned people like Cindy Crawford and Sherilyn Fenn. I actually wound up having the larger, more “offensive” one shaved off to make my MOTHER happy. I think that most of the time we don’t stop and think that our quirks are ugly until other people point them out and say that they are.

    And so, like everyone else, let me tell you how NOT ugly you or your eye is. (Are? I should know this, I write for a living…) It’s something different, sure, but I always love people who have things that make them just a little more unique than other people. And you’re so beautiful, that when I tell people about your blog, I actually have to add, “But she’s also so adorable and sweet, you can’t even hate her for it.” Eye or not.

    So just concentrate on being healthy and making sure your eyes are healthy. The rest of it is just details.

    Shani xxx

  42. Karima, I am so sorry to hear about your eye. I have been watching your videos right from the beginning and I know you mentioned having eye surgery at one point, but I never noticed the black spot. I saw people commenting and asking what was wrong with your eye and even after reading their comments and going back to look, I couldn’t spot it! Until this post, I always thought the darkness was a natural shadow at the curve of the eyeball.

    Of course that doesn’t lessen the horror of having something wrong with your eye, but I just wanted to add my voice to the others who said they never even noticed.

  43. I, honestly, never noticed anything “different” about your eyes and I have watched all of your youtube videos and read every blog post. Maybe that speaks to my inattention to detail or the fact that some people are constantly looking to bring someone else down (especially on youtube and often shrouded as innocent “advise” or “helpful opinion”). What I really think it boils down to is that you’re very talented, smart, funny and interesting so there’s little room to pay attention to anything else.

  44. I’m so sorry about what’s happening to you, Karima! I personnally never noticed something wrong with your eye until you talked about it (still, I don’t get why people felt the so called need to point this out at every single video – this is none of our business. Really. I mean, I’m happy when you share some bits of your life with us – seems like I watch a friend talking – but I would never ask you to explain things you don’t want to. Some people are so rude. And real idiots. You’re beautiful Karima so please, don’t let these mean people bring you down because they don’t deserve such attention from you!)
    Anyway, I wanted to tell you that NOBODY has the right to judge about what you thought about your look and your eye. I was diagnosed a colon cancer 2 years ago and when I had my chemo and surgeries, I remember that I thought “oh,
    I’ll never wear a bikini again because of that huge scar on my belly” and “I lost so much hair d my skin looks so sallow and horrible, I don’t want people to stare at me”… I won’t say I understand what your feel, but i imagine that, like me, you don’t want others to remember you as the “sick one” neither as because of a physical, apparent “flaw” (which isn’t, really). I don’t think you’re being stupid thinking about these things – NOBODY except you knows how you feel nor where you’re going through. Chin up in front of judgemental people, seek hugs amongs your loved ones and don’t forget all the courage which is inside you.
    Hugs from a girl who loves your videos and your personality!! Take care. xx
    (Sorry if it seems a little confusing, I’m French and English obviously isn’t my mother tongue! Lol).

  45. When I first started reading this post I thought, “gee, I have no idea what she is talking about” and then went to watch one of your videos. Upon watching, I realized that I had previously noticed a small darkened spot on your eye but that it was so unnoteworthy that it barely registered. This is all by way of saying that even in a video which is focused on your face and beauty-oriented, I hardly noticed your “flaw” and, to the extent that I did notice it, I pretty much forgot it immediately. It is that subtle.

    Of course, they are your eyes on your face, so I don’t expect that it looks as subtle to you as it does to an outsider. Your feelings are completely valid, don’t get me wrong. Coping with physical changes can be tough, especially since we don’t have the luxury of seeing ourselves the way that others do.

    1. Hey Coco 🙂
      I mentioned this in another comment but I am now acutely aware of what angles emphasise (and minimise) the appearance of my discolouration so I can conceal it somewhat in videos and photos. I’m not ashamed, I just want to keep the focus on the makeup.
      We are all our own worst critic. I think I took to the idea particularly poorly because it was so unexpected and it was only now that I realised I’m a high risk patient.
      Hopefully I’ll never require another eye surgery, given the circumstances.
      Thanks for your insight 🙂 x

  46. You’re gorgeous, girl! How much courage you show us! Honestly, never noticed this spot on videos or pics, but I can imagine what you’re going through. I will pray for an effective solution will come your way, never lose hope and till then… Keep being that great personality, you’re so much stronger than you think you are and if crying helps, cry, because tears are pain leaving the soul to make space for strength. You can’t imagine what an inspiration you are to me.

  47. Some people can be so inconsiderate when they’re reading a blog or watching a video. You are gorgeous, and I’m sorry you’ve been put through this rough patch in your life.
    I totally understand the freak outs regarding health concerns. I’ve been there and hope you find some positive answers!

  48. Hi Karima,

    I actually just discovered your blog and channel, and I think you are absolutely great. And, as someone who has watched most of your video archive, I can say this: what black spot? Seriously. If people are harping on something so minor — something that, to me, was invisible — it’s their problem, not yours.

    I know that might not make you feel better, but I just wanted to offer my two cents. I’ve learned so much from you, and I think you’re a positive, generous presence on YouTube and the Internet at large. I hope you’ll keep us updated on the medical end of your situation. I’m very sorry you’re experiencing these difficulties, and I’m so glad you got a second opinion.

    Wishing you the very best,

  49. Thank you for telling your story, though it’s no ones business. You are so pretty, and I know it’s hard to be different, people are not always kind. But that spot is part of your journey and I would so rather have the spot than not have my beautiful eye. Try to embrace it, I truly love your tutorials and will always watch, spot or no spot.

  50. Dear Karima,
    Sometimes, so many times, life can throw at you really difficult curve balls. It is in these times, more than any other, that you can understand the true essence of your character, and strive for the best person you can be.
    I have a serious auto-immune illness myself, a very aggressive form of Rheumatoid Arthritis, which is not your typical “grandpa’s arthritis” but an auto-immune disease that is systemic and progressive and affects not just joints but all connective tissue (present everywhere: heart, lungs, eyes, etc, etc). If yours ends up being linked to any auto-immune issue and you want, you can shoot me an email and I can share my experience with auto-immunity. I have had it for 32 years, was diagnosed at 4 and I’ll be 36 in May. Because of how aggressive my RA has been I have gone through A LOT, like being in a wheelchair for 7 years when I was a child, or having a systemic crisis that was very nearly fatal, and many other things that would be too long to mention. So I have some of the perspective of what a serious health problem, like yours, can make you face.
    My case is tough so every medical decision I make needs to be heavily weighted and it is full with uncertainties and no guaranties. My main directive is to think which decision will give me less regrets in the future. I imagine having the procedure and it going wrong, and also not having the procedure and keep dealing with whatever the problem is. Which scenario (both not optimal) I think would give me the least amount of regrets? You say yourself you would do the first surgery again because now you can LIVE. So you did well. For your next step, listen to as many medical opinions as possible (knowledge is power), analyze it rationally, don’t rush, and then run it all through your heart and intuition. You’ll make the best choice with what you have.
    You have the right to grieve. You are not shallow or ungrateful because of it. It is completely normal and everyone in similar situations needs to do that. Allow yourself to go through that process so you can then move on. And fully, whole-heartedly enjoy all the things you can now do with your eyes working well. You can pursue your passions. This problem you face will be hard but will make you even more valuable in your own eyes and to others.
    Maybe your black spot will go away with time, or maybe not. If you decide not to have surgery on it, then you’ll start a process of accepting it more and more and there will come a point when it will be easier. Easy even. And at that point, my best bit of advice is… own it. Not just tolerate it, own it. Somehow by doing that you multiply the beauty you already had to begin with. Because you are a somewhat “public figure” you’ll have some added challenges. But from the type of woman you seem to be, I think you can do that, and more.
    It is not about “being an inspiration”. It is about living the kind of life you want to lead.
    Just so you know, spot or not, your eyes are my favorite feature of yours. And your personality is magnetic. And you’re so good in what you do. I never follow blogs; I forget, I get bored. But with you, I have developed a bit of a Karima addiction. I don’t miss a post and I even write comments! Both a first. And that is because of you. The WHOLE of you. And that is what truly has weight, not any individual part of you. I promise you, you won’t be remembered because of “one flaw”. There is too much other stuff, good stuff, going on with you for that to even be an issue.
    You’ve given me a lot of good makeup intel AND good times, so I hope I gave you something back.
    Keep being you, beautiful.
    xxxxx Catalina

    1. Hey Catalina,
      I’m sorry to hear of your auto-immune condition 🙁 That sounds so tough, I can’t even imagine. I’m contacting my doctor to get screened for any possibility of an auto-immune disease, although it’s possible I had an auto-immune response without a lifelong condition. I’ll definitely report back to you and let you know our findings.

      You’re spot on about weighing up the outcomes, I KNOW that I can’t have avoided the first surgery and knowing what I do now, I would still do it all over again. I really didn’t have an option, at that point.

      The second surgery is another story, I think I wanted it mostly to reverse the reminder that there was I may not be as invincible as I thought, ridiculous as that may sound.
      I’m definitely not in any rush and that’s why I wanted to address it here, I guess. It may very well be a permanant part of me.

      Thanks for not judging my response, it’s been a lifelong journey with my eyes and this whole saga really hit me where it hurt. Thanks for all your kind words, I can’t even begin to tell you what an incredible support it has been.

  51. Lovely Karima: I’ve seen a lot of your videos and never noticed anything wrong, I promise! Excuse me because my english is terrible, but your post is a very sincere, brave and honest writing about ours feeling about beauty, health, ext… You are so beautiful that I think you are a model. I understand your thinking about what people will think about you and your spot, beauty is direct, we see and like it instantly! But nobody is perfect, and the real beauty isn’t perfect too. But I understand your troubles, I think all os us, girls and women, we would think like you in your situation.
    Un abrazo muy grande desde España Karima, eres muy hermosa, muy inteligente y muy simpática. Es la verdad, sinceramente. Yo no había notado raro, de verdad, un beso cariño!!!

  52. You don’t owe us any explanation about your private life. Health first as you said it so well in your post. Medical breakthroughs and progress occur all the time and you don’t know how your eye is going to heal yet. As Jean-Jacques Rousseau said it: “Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet” (yes, I’m your nerdiest blog lover :p) I personally think you are a gorgeous, witty and fantastic lady! I absolutely love your blog and wish you to be happy and in good health! 🙂

  53. I’m so sorry to hear all you’ve been through.
    I’m sad that you received bad comments about that spot. I only check your videos through your blog, so I never even knew about that. Honestly, the very notion of waisting time just to bring somebody down like that is jus ridiculous to me.
    I think I noticed that spot once and wondered for like 2 seconds what it was, but I truly never even registered it again watching your videos. You’re such a beautiful, talented and lovely girl that something like that is literally irrelevant to me.
    I don’t mean to judge you for worrying about it even in the esthetic level at all. We all tend to fixate on things we don’t like about our faces and bodies and think of them as much uglier or noticeable than they actually are to others, especially if there are people out there eager to point it out to us. But try to believe me: that spot doesn’t compromise your beauty in the slightest bit.
    I’m also sorry to hear that it could be something serious. I can’t imagine how you must have felt today hearing all that. I sincerely hope you can find out what it is and how to treat it as soon as possible.

  54. If I can be completely honest here. I will say that I recently found you on Youtube and decided to subscribe to your channel cause you are GORGEOUS, articulate and absolutely adorable! I did noticed the black in your eye and Im NOT bullshitting when I say that my first thought was: “look at that! What a unique feature! She looks amazing and I love she knows it!”
    All this not to imply I think its bad that you wanted to get rid of it if it made you feel bad (which I honestly dont see why you look amazing), what I am saying is that outsiders may not perceive it the way you think they do. The “nature” of what you do on YouTube is not meant to force you to look perfect, as a matter of fact I think the success of those channels lays in part on the fact that you girls are so relatable to normal, regular women.
    Dont worry about that minor detail girl! YOU ARE STUNNING! surely because of your looks but mostly because of your persona that comes across shinning thru your videos. Cheer Up!

  55. I’ve been following you for a few moths and honestly had no idea you had any issues with your eye! That must have been very scary to be told though and I would have done the same-cancelled the surgery-the main thing is that you have the use of your eyes and a few of us here have said we hadn’t even noticed it, so I wouldn’t worry about what it looks like i you decide not to have it xx

  56. Oh Karima!

    The internet is the cruelest of all places and you are so incredibly brave to deal with those who hide behind keyboards. When I watch videos of you, I don’t see that girl with a spot on her eye. I see someone intelligent, who has so much charm, who is so well spoken and absolutely glows with so much beauty that I could never linger on that spot.

    I wish you nothing but the best of health!


  57. Karima-

    I watch and enjoy your videos. I’ve noticed the spot in your eye, but never once has it made me think of you as any less beautiful. I’ve thought how unfair it is that you have such wonderful skin and cheekbones, or that you can line your eyes better than anyone on YouTube, but I’ve never thought that about the spot in your eye, other than just thinking it’s a spot in your eye.
    I am a cancer survivor. With no family history and only 45 years old (old for your YouTube fans, I know), I was too young to even be considered at risk for CRC (colo-rectal cancer), yet I found myself having one of those sobbing, convulsing moments in the hallway. I did what I had to do – surgeries, chemos, radiation, etc., and am almost 2 years cancer free. What I want to tell you is that vanity didn’t win. I have scars (MANY scars), I wore an ostomy bag for a year, I’ll always have a funny shaped abdomen. But like you, I decided my life (my sight) is too important. I also went with the most conservative doctor, who recommended the hardest course of treatment — no shortcuts and nothing designed so that I’d have less scars. YOU are beautiful. And the world is beautiful. And better that you be able to see the world, than to risk your sight. I know what that despair feels like. But I also know that it feels really good when you can look back later and know that you overcame the hardest obstacles.
    I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. I wish you all the best; I hope you find the right doctors and the right care and the right answers. Hugs.

  58. That must have been a terrifying experience, I’m sending virtual hugs and will follow up with real hugs when I next see you. You are a brave and beautiful woman- forget the trolls.

  59. You are stunning – I’ve often oohed and aaahed over how pretty you are so aesthetically I don’t think this will be a problem for you. I hope you figure out what it is health wise though. 🙂

  60. It surprises me that you received public attention for just one little feature. To be honest, I never noticed the black spot, nor do I care, assuming there weren’t any health problems about it. I have met a few people with the same feature as yours, but it has never occured to me that one can be under scrutiny because of it.

    I’m sorry that you underwent a lot of flack for something that seems so small, but your passion and enthusiasm for makeup seriously overcomes that. I think you are drop-dead gorgeous, black spot be damned. In my opinion, the issue is extremely insignificant to me; you are such a lovely person with a positive love for makeup and life. Nothing will ever replace that. I hope you feel better soon.

  61. Hi Karima,

    I just showed my boyfriend your story and the first thing he said was: “I think her eye looks kind of cool!” I must say that I barely notice it and if the problems you had are over now, that is most important. I’ve got a big scar on the inside of my foot that I got when I was about 6 years old. My dad took me out cycling and my foot got stuck in the wheel (Dutch people and their bikes!) And even though that is not a very noticeable spot, I used to think it was very gross and ugly. When I look at it now, I feel like it has always been there.
    I often complain about my uneven eyelids and when I look in the mirror, sometimes it’s all I see. The same goes when I have spots on my face. I have been dealing with fatigue problems for about 6 years now and was diagnosed with CFS in 2009 and if someone said they could either fix that or fix my acne, the choice would be easy. I think it’s very brave that you decided to cancel your eye surgery. I think you’re a wonderful person and your blog is truly one of my favourites.

  62. For what it’s worth, I’d literally never noticed there was something up with your eye, despite you mentioning it in posts and stuff. I just thought you’d had laser correctional surgery or something and you couldn’t put makeup near it for a while. It’s not as noticeable as you think!

  63. Desde que encontré tu blog en internet me pareciste muy divertida, interesante y guapa, no me pierdo tus entradas en el blog y tus videos. No dejes que los comentarios mal intencionados arruinen tu día y espero que encuentres una solución a tu problema médico, mucha suerte Karima 😀

  64. Oh girl, I’m so sorry you are going through this! You have every right to be upset, so please don’t apologize. I can only imagine I would have a similar reaction. I will say that I never even noticed the black spot! I have watched your videos and read your posts, and I also consider myself to be an observant person. I actually had to go back and look for it. Here’s the thing though – I’m observing to learn and to discover new products. I am NOT observing to be a critic or be nasty. Hear me when I say that people who make off comments cannot be bothered with. I hope you continue to post – I just adore your writing style, tutorials, and reviews. You’re my enabler! And you’re just beautiful. Believe me, that spot is in no way your distinguishing feature.

  65. I just started watching your videos a few weeks ago. When I noticed your eye my first thought was “her eye reminds me of a sun dog” I thought how, beautiful and unique. 🙂

  66. Dear Karima, if you didn’t say there is anything wrong, I didn’t even notice at all. You are as pretty and wonderful as usual. keep on the great tutorials and reviews, look forward to them:) Hope you feel better soon.

  67. Hey Karima, we all know looks are a really sensitive thing (no matter how many times we brush it off as frivolous, self-indulgent, vain, etc) and it’s pretty traumatizing when something about it changes for good. I’m not trying to say I know how you feel, but I can sympathize in the sense that I was diagnosed with something permanent, albeit less visible, but will stigmatize me for the rest of my life unless society changes drastically. At first it was soul-crushing, but you have to trust me when I say it gets a hell of a lot better and it gets better quickly. You’ll soon reach the stage where you still think about it from time to time but it doesn’t make you gloomy or self-conscious; I’m not talking a grim resignation, but a genuine acceptance and just plain forgetting it’s even there. I don’t think there’s a person in the world who has looked at you and thought you are ugly because of a spot on your eye– that scar in no way diminishes your [abundant/jealousy-inducing] beauty. If you had three more of those things I would still trade faces with you in a heartbeat! You’ll never have to worry about your spot “disgusting” someone because if they are, they’re already having an incredibly tough day-to-day life if they’re bothered by something so small and probably have some personal issues to work out. As for the few commenters on youtube, they seem to be young teenagers who haven’t developed filters yet. Please keep your gorgeous head up and know you won’t feel this way forever! I do hope you continue blogging, mostly for selfish reasons because you’re pretty much my authority on cosmetics. I’ll say it again, you’re an incredibly beautiful, creative, and engaging person and no eyeball scar can take even a tiny bit of that away from you. I hope that the initial problem you set out to fix has been taken care of (the most important one, remember) and I wish you a speedy recovery from the rest!

  68. Hey. I’m sorry that things aren’t the best for you right now. It’s strange to feel empathy with a person you’ve never come in contact with, much less talked to, but I think you’re awesome. Eye problems and all. You’re super brave (in my little opinion) to share your hurt, your frustrations, and your fear with strangers. And I hope that the support that has been poured out here has helped alleviate some of the ick that you’ve been feeling. I dunno why I felt compelled to write. I just wanted you to know that there’s just one more person in a sea of many who think that you’re talented and beautiful and awesome. One more that appreciates the hard work that you put into your blog and sharing your passion and hopes that you feel better, if not happy, soon. Have a lovely day, Karima. Maybe take a bubble bath and nom cupcakes or snuggle with your so. Even though stuff is scary you have bundles of people who care about you and wish you well and are all here pouring out their adoration so you don’t feel so alone in the scariness of life.


    – someone who thinks your marvelous ;3

  69. I read your blog regularly, never commented until now. I think your eyes are amazing and the spot is sexy and mysterious! Allow yourself time to cry and don’t feel like you shouldn’t. My eyes were my most redeeming quality but I developed tumors that I had removed. The white part of my left eye is scarred and I still have pain and redness-even after my second surgery that involved a transplant of healthy tissue. Everyday people ask me what is wrong with my eye and it is frustrating because this is my ‘normal’. I’ve also had sudden severe inflammation of the sclera which is extremely painful and impossible to hide. Take your time with your decision and improvements in medicine are always happening. In the meantime, embrace your look and thank you for sharing your story-you are very courageous and inspiring!

  70. I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with nasty comments. You’re absolutely stunning & I don’t think this little imperfection detracts from that at all. Your sight is so important- it’s something we take for granted, or at least I do, so it must have been so scary for you to have gone through that. I think most people would have made the same decision you did. xx

  71. I’ve been watching your videos for months and never noticed a thing! Even just now I re-watched your latest upload and couldn’t figure out what you were referring to for a few minutes. You are are gorgeous girl, a tiny mark in your eye doesn’t change that one bit trust me! I hope you feel better soon.

  72. Karima,

    Let me start by stating the obvious; you are one of the most beautiful persons on the planet, inside and out. Now secondly I am flabbergasted because “what eye thing?” I swear I have watched all your videos and read the blog and never saw anything weird or out of the normal with your eye(s). Please focus on your health and close your ears to people who obviously have personality issues that one can only hope they overcome with time/maturity/a good smack on the head. You have every right in the world to worry, cry and be scared because when something serious goes wrong in your life well, it is YOU LIFE and you own the right to all opinions, thoughts and descicions. Wishing you all the best! *hugs*

  73. I’m sorry that this happened to you.
    There is an excellent eye clinic in Germany, the Uni Tuebingen. A lot of people from all over the world go there. I knot it is probably not possible for you to fly to Germany, but you may want to contact them with info and maybe pictures to get their opinion. (If you like!)
    This is their email: neuro.oph @
    It may take a while till they answer, because a lot of people try to contact them. Again, that’s only if you like to hear what they would advise.

  74. Hi Karima – I won’t repeat what now 90 other people have said ahead of me. But I will say that I am thinking of you and sending you strength as you deal with the news you have received. Health issues and vision issues are serious biz’nezz!! In reading this post, you strike me as a woman who is wise beyond her years – you are an inspiration in many, many ways.

    I will echo the earlier comment about Cindy Crawford’s mole — I always think of the spot in your eye the exact same way. It somehow makes you MORE beautiful. May lightning strike me down if I don’t mean that with complete and total sincerity.

    My wonderful, lovely, amazing boyfriend has Stargardt’s disease and is blind. Sitting two feet away from me he cannot determine if I am beaming with joy or sobbing in pain. I love him immensely. The only thing that frustrates me about his vision is that he cannot properly admire all the hard work I’ve put into my eye makeup! HAHA. The importance of vision cannot be overstated! I’m so happy your Strabismus is corrected and wish you the best as you deal with what you are experiencing now.

    Much love, SJ

  75. Ey Karima. I am very sorry to know that you are sad because of your eyes. I’ve been following you for a couple of months because I think that you are very pretty and your hair and face colour is similar to mine. I did not realise you had a spot in your eye until a few days ago, and both my boyfriend and eye were very happy that someone so pretty as you are had a spot in the eye as I have one in my lacrimal. We thought it was sort of a luck for us to find someone so special to follow, so please, do to be sad. I also have a lot in my plate and this is the reason why I understand you so well when you say that not even money can cure us sometimes. I have one of those strange illnesses and I also thought that time will lead to a cure or to some improvement, but it didn’t. You are very pretty, and your spot in your eye make you unique. I think we are all our circumstances, I have my leg covered with scars, you’ve got a spot in the eye, who cares? Just us, you and I. And I feel grateful to find someone who sees me as I am, no matter what happens with my leg. Please, don’t take comments seriously because people sometimes hurt because they are hurt.
    I hope that you could see how beauty you are for us, and how happy you make us with your funny videos. I love them!
    I know it also will take you some time
    Take care!

  76. We love you too karima 🙂

    I’ve followed you for a long time now and I adore your tutorials! I certainly hope you continue to make them. You’re beautiful regardless, I barely notice the spot, and when you look straight I don’t see it at all. Who cares anyways, no one is perfect. People would be lucky to be half as pretty as you are!

    Take care <3

  77. Karima, I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. My boyfriend, sister, and I all have autoimmune disorders, and while I’ve been lucky enough to have mostly great doctors, we’ve all run into complications with doctoral hubris at some point or another. I really, really hope that you know your frustrations and anger are completely justified: you are the best person to look out for yourself, and nothing about your situation makes you vain. It is so difficult to do things, to leave the house, when you think that everyone is looking at you like something alien; that strangers are examining you like a zoo animal, but that doesn’t make you vain — it makes you human. It took me a long time to stop feeling ashamed when my hair started to thin and bald (we’ve since tweaked my drug regimen to settle things down, hurrah!), and I hope you can feel comfortable again in your body someday, too.

    The internet is full of assholes, but I’m really glad that you shared your story with us — and I hope it can make you feel a little less alone. Like many of the other commenters, I follow you because I think you’re absolutely hilarious, and I love both your photographs and your makeup looks. And, yes, I basically think you’re the prettiest princess to ever princess, but no black spot on your sclera could ever change that — heck, I’d still follow your blog if your eye was entirely missing and you had a total of like, three teeth. You’d just be the prettiest pirate princess to ever princess instead, and you know what?

    I think you could pull it off. 😀 <3

    1. Hey Rae 🙂
      It’s insane how many people can relate to these health issues yet we’d never know because it simply doesn’t come up (when talking about…eyeshadow?)
      Funny you should mention alien, because one specialist did in fact call me an alien case. I’m so glad you’ve managed to combat the thinning hair, I had no idea. You’re a tough lady <3
      I'm okay with the comments, I would be curious too so I can understand why people ask and I don't think there is any bad intention behind it.
      Thanks for all your kind words, the incredible support here has definitely made me feel less alone.
      I should start signing off as pirate princess 😀 I think I could own that.
      So much love, Karima.

  78. Karima,

    I’ve known you from MUA for a long time and have followed your eye surgery ordeal. I know this is hard for you to understand now, because trust me, you are too young, but your flaws are what makes you interesting and unique in the long run. I promise you that the black spot in your eye does not detract 0.01% from your beauty, in fact, it makes you more interesting and memorable. As I said, I really don’t think you’ll understand or believe me now, but I promise you will in about 15 years. Just trust me on this, ok? 😉 Cheers.

  79. I know that it’s easy to say, but I think you made a good decision. I watch your videos all the time and it took me awhile to notice that black spot… And even then I noticed it and read about it, I honestly didn’t think that it’s unattractive or something like that. Quite an opposite:)
    It reminds me my own situation. I have a crooked nose and in my non objective opinion it’s really noticable or maeby even ugly, but it took 6 years for my best friend to notice it. From that moment I realised that appearance are not important (though I have to say that you are a very beautiful). What IS important is your self-esteem

  80. Karima, you are truly beautiful inside and out! I can assume you the black spot does not detract from your talent and lovable personality that I see in all your tutorials. All the best! xx

  81. Karima, I have never thought your eye defined you or made you anything different to anyone else! Honestly the first time I watched your youtube vids i thought this girl is GORGEOUS and extremely talented! Love your blog and I love your videos. To me you are not a girl with a black spot in her eye but a girl who is stunning and has very valuable information and opinions about makeup/beauty 🙂

  82. I noticed the black spot on your eyes and thought it had been a result of the intervention you had and I never gave it another thought. It is not ugly or disgusting. Are scars ugly and disgusting? Or wrinkles? I know when we spend so much time looking at the mirror all our little imperfections seem huge. No matter what people say, for you this is something you wish you didn’t have. So my advice is for you to take a positive spin on this. What is better? To have strabismus or a little black scar on your eye? Was it worth it? I imagine it was because you can go to uni and drive your car. It is not worth taking more risks with your eyes now. Because the benefits, weighted by the probability of success are not bigger than having to live with your eye like this.

    My mom has so many stretch marks on her belly and she hates them, but she always says it was worth it because she had 4 kids. You need to focus on the positives. That black spot is the result of your personal fight to be independent, leave the house, drive you car, go to uni. You should be proud of it.

  83. Dear beautiful Karima – I am so sorry that you’ve gotten a difficult diagnosis. And I am so sorry that you’ve had to deal with insensitive/unkind comments on top of that. Typing behind a computer screen seems to make people bold and/or stupid and they say things they would never say IRL. I know it is far easier said then done but please don’t let their comments change what you’re doing.
    I also deal with chronic health issues & know the difficulties & challenges that come with that. I had hoped to have Lasik in the future as well but due to some of my issues that is not an option. I know what it feels like to see something you had hoped for slip away. Get a second, third, sixth opinion. You have to be comfortable with your health plan and the drs. you are working with. You only get 2 eyes and they are important. If you’ve got time and don’t have to rush into anything – take time to grieve, research, talk, whatever you need to do to move forward. I was aware that you had surgery a while back but hadn’t given it another thought since then. I hadn’t noticed the spot at all until this post. I had to pull up some past posts/videos and look. It was certainly not something that jumped off the page at me.

    You are a strong, stunning woman Karima! Listening to your tutorials feels like I’m sitting across from a friend. Your skills are fantastic and I love your sense of humor! I hope that you continue to do videos – I will watch them as long as you keep doing them!
    I wish you the very best as you deal with this! Sending you big hugs from Kansas!

    1. Hey Kristi,
      That’s exactly how I feel, I really looked forward to the day I might be able to get Lasik to address my horrid eyesight and I feel like those opportunities are slipping away from me. It’s limiting, frightening and the information hit me all at once.
      I’m sure I’ll feel better about it all after time and I’m definitely in no rush, I have some other professionals to contact for extra opinions.
      I wish you all the best with your chronic health issues and hopefully we can better appreciate what we DO have. Your kind words are everything, thank you.

  84. Hi Karima,

    I have been watching your Youtube channel (MAJOR LOVE!) and like many others here, it annoys me to no end whenever I see those ‘What’s wrong with your eye’ comments. Seriously, it doesn’t bother me nor is it that noticeable so I have zero clue why some peeps are just nosy? or just being an ass. I hope you ignore them and please know that you are such a stunning woman in your fans’ eyes.

    I wish you all the best and do not think for a second that you are being vain about this whole thing. It’s your eyes and you have every right to be dead worried about it. Stay strong and looking forward to more of your videos! xoxo

  85. I´m so soory you felt so bad. But I think the most important thing here is to keep you healthy. Do what´s best for your eyes, you know. The important thing now is to preserve your vision.

    I don´t really care about that black spot in your eye. Really, you´re so beautiful, your eyes are such a gorgeous color, that a tiny spot there doesn´t make any difference to me. And you seem to be a great person too, soh that´s all that matters. Really, the black spot is not important to me.

    I hope you feel better. Kisses from Brazil.

  86. Way to go Girlfriend! I admire you courage and acceptance. I know that cancelling your surgery REALLY is a pretty tough decision, but I want to commend you for your courage and accepting with what you have now. Just don’t let other people define who you are. You are beautiful, and what is in your eye for me is not a defect – but something that people easily notice and fail to see how gorgeous you are in the outside. Just don’t let their criticisms pull you down. Your identity is not based on their opinion, but what is in there inside of you radiating in the outside. You are always loved.

  87. i didn’t even notice the eye thing until someone pointed it out. your pretty features make it totally irrelevant! x

  88. So brave of you to post about this in such detail. I’m sorry you’ve had such a hard time, can’t imagine why people would ever dream of posting negative comments about this on here, it’s a beauty blog, you go out of your way to help make people feel and look more beautiful so just can’t imagine why anyone would try and put you down.
    I look at eyes all day for a living (optician) and I just assumed that small area of pigment was simply a birth mark or mole that I’d never noticed in the past as I’ve been reading your blog for a very long time. I hope everything works out well for you and hope you wouldn’t mind keeping us updated on your progress!

  89. Also would you mind me asking if this is a scleral melt you have developed or is it a new area of pigment? I’m only asking as I saw a very rare case of scleral melt in a girl about your age a few weeks ago and it left the leading ophthalmologist completely baffled. She hadn’t even had any eye issues/ surgery, it just appeared out of the blue. So your not the only one out there if that’s what it is.

    1. Hey Clare,
      It is indeed a scleral melt. Mine was surgically induced so while we know what motivated the melt, we’re not entirely sure why my body responded this way (which leads to questions about auto-immunity and such).

  90. Karina;
    Firtstable, you are so beautiful inside and outside (remember always). I have strabismus since i was born, my doctor never said me the surgery because i can read and see perfectly and this is only when someone stare on me. I´m 30 now and i try to hide this “problem” with a litle bit tips. The mostly people cant see my strabismus, the only thing is when i take a picture of me.
    Remember: you are pretty, i thought it was a mole or something like that in your eye and i think the same that your doctor “we have only two eyes and if you can see perfectly, try to avoid this surgery” i can understand you but my doctor told me when i was younger that is better not surgery when u see well because u can have a weird complication and it´s worth it.
    I think you are perfect and you are welcome to the “strabismus girl club” hehehheh
    Kisses from Spain

  91. I’m so sorry people have been harassing you! You’re quite possibly one of the most beautiful and talented girls I’ve had the pleasure of learning from. If anyone is picking you apart, it’s because of their own insecurities. I wish you the best for you health.

    Much love xoxo

    1. Harassing is too strong of a word but there have been questions (and occasionally, insults) on most of my videos. It doesn’t bother me too much, I assume people are just curious 🙂 x

  92. Hey Karima,

    I have been following your blog for a while now and think you have such a positive, bubbly personality and are DROP DEAD GORGEOUS regardless of a small spot on your eye. To me, it gives character and does not take away in any aspect your beauty inside and out! I just wanted you to know that, even though I know that you must be going through a difficult time accepting it. Just know that your overall personality and gorgeousness to me make that spot not even noticeable.



  93. I kind of feel terrible for reading this and thinking “there was something wrong with your eye?” Mind you, I’ve lurked here for months and it’s terrible of me, but I have just totally never noticed. Furthermore, as a person subscribed to your youtube channel too, I am amazed that people noticed or even felt the need to be jerks about it. I personally think you rock just about every look (seriously, you and drivel about frivol drive me mad with how you can just put on like green eyeshadow and bam, looks flawless)… Nonetheless, stay strong and I really hope you cheer up. 🙂

  94. mikmik. you are without a doubt one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever seen. I love your videos so much. You are funny and warm and I could watch you put stuff on your face all day long. your skin is perfection. your articulation and descriptions are so vivid and professional. you are in a class above.

    I know being in the beauty industry is going to make you hyper aware of your own physical imperfections. and I’m sure youtube doesn’t help. but please don’t give up makeup or making videos, because you are amazing.

    I wish you health and happiness and 2% owls forever.

  95. Hey Karima, I’ve been viewing your videos for the past week or so, I think I have completed them all. You’re absolutely great. At some point, I did notice the spot in your eye; I think it’s quite normal to notice it since you’re doing makeup around it and it brings some sort of attention to the area. But then, once I noticed it, I didn’t even think it was a medical issue or anything bad; for me it was just a spot somewhere in your body, as many people have spots, scars, marks, freckles… It was just something unique to add to your beauty. It adds a cute characteristic to your aura, it doesn’t detract from you absolutely anything. So don’t worry about any physical negativity, there is NONE. If someone wants to make a negative comment about anything bad about you, remember when people do this, it’s because they’re looking in a mirror and any “flaw” they see is actually a flaw within themselves. Ignore them, there is nothing good in fuelling the negativity.

    Now, let me give you some perspective if I’m allowed. If you have a medical condition, you are doing good in having as many opinions as you may want. It doesn’t matter if your condition is unknown or just the flu. You have to be sure about who is treating you and why so you can be sure that you’re doing the right thing with your body. Several years ago, I had a facial paralysis. Half of my face was litterally paralysed for about a month and a half. A virus reached some nerve behind my ear (it hurt as hell btw) and so half of my face paralysed. I had a lot of medication taken and lots of physiotherapy and facial exercises. After some time, I started seeing some improvement, little by little my face recovered mobility and strength, but since then my face isn’t the same, it feels different one side from the other and my eyes look now quite asymmetrical in some pictures. Most people don’t even notice it, but I do. I also have some more “medical flaws” (I call them like that) that are maybe more noticeable. But then I’m the one that sees them, not everybody notices them, so I don’t really care.

    I care when my face feels different. Crying is really funny, it feels so strange sometimes. When I drink sodas or anything sour or strong, I suddenly have one eye (always the left one) watering. I find it funny now, because it’s so unusual, and I honestly can’t do anything else to correct it. It has been difficult sometimes and during the paralysis some doctors also said I could have half my body paralysed forever and some other drama. Turns out they didn’t know a bit.

    For me, now my paralysis is just something that adds to my story. I have something really weird and unusual to tell people about me when they ask. Me and my friends laugh about the times they had to bring me lollipops to excercise my mouth (it was yummy), and my family makes fun of me to make me understand it really wasn’t that big of a deal. It’s over now and I have some sequels from it; it’s uncomfortable sometimes but nothing nos to handle. So I have nothing else to worry about, I just have to live with that in my past.

    After all of this nonsense from me to you, all I want is for you to see that if there is a medical condition, address it wisely; that’s the serious part. Take care of yourself…. About the physical or aesthetic side of it, don’t give much importance to it. For all I care (I can only speak for myself) looking at that spot is as big of a deal as having a mole in your back or just any scar from any fall… It’s something unique that adds to your beauty and now you have one more story to tell.

    Be happy, be sure to know that everything will be OK 🙂


  96. I had noticed it and just thought it was birth mark, or something like that, and actually thought it was pretty cool. I can only imagine how hard it must be to have a problem with your eye and not know what it is or why it happened.
    As for the mark, I have a scar on my cheek from an accident when I was a kid and I was always kind of embarrassed by it, but now it looks like a dimple on my cheek and I’ve actually received compliments on my pretty dimple…although it is only on one side of my face! So, aesthetically, you should just take it as a quirk that makes you one-of-a-kind!

  97. **HUGS**
    my 2 cents worth – you’re awesome, never really noticed your eye thing til you brought it up! I hope you feel better soon and find a doctor/medical solution combo that makes you feel great about yourself again!

  98. Hi, Karima
    You are such a beautiful girl, inside and out. I can’t imagaine what you have been through, but you are such an inspirationt to many people. Keep shining and being you <3

  99. Hi karima, take it this way, tell yourself that thank G.d you did not do the surgery an was smart enough to get a second opinion, because who knows what could have had happened!!! So pat yourself in the back. I was one of those who asked you, by curiosity, but, in any way it takes off of your beauty, because damn you are beautiful ( I was again saying it to myself today when I open your Q&A video…) Some people have scars on their face or/ and on their body, and it seems to be a cute thing more than a scary thing. It is a mark that belongs to you now, and is just a reminder of your story, but it’s like a little charm, often, defaults become little cute charming things…..I know you will be back on your feet soon because the nature of Scorpio :-))))) FIGHTER!!! Much much love.

  100. Until you mentioned it, I never even noticed a problem with your eye! You are so gorgeous! That’s the FIRST thing anyone would notice!

  101. I’ve been watching your videos for awhile now and honestly didn’t even notice anything wrong with your eyes, and I am someone who normally does notice that stuff. Very Good decision not to have the extra surgery! Whilst I understand how traumatic your condition is to you, it’s definitely not the first thing people notice about you and it in no way detracts from your beauty. As long as you are well, own this little idiosyncrasy that you have – it doesn’t have to be a ‘flaw’.

  102. Maybe I’m weird, but I think that dark spot in your eye is cool and sexy. It reminds me of the main character Phedre from the Kushiel Trilogy from Jacqueline Carey, who had a “dark mote” in her eye, indicating she was touched by a particular god. Then again, I tend to think our “flaws” are usually the most interesting components of our beauty.

    That said, I’m sorry that this has been such a frustrating and alarming experience for you, and I hope it heals without further problems. 🙂

  103. Karima,

    I know how you feel about your eye, I seriously have some funky spots on both eyes that I have never received an explanation about. I wish I could send you photos. But you are incredibly beautiful! I love watching you so much and enjoy reading your blog, you seem so real. Keep doing what you’re doing because you are amazing at it.


  104. I got here from your new Q&A video, but just want to say that my boyfriend and I were watching your video (his first time seeing you) and he literally said “Woah, her eye is so cool!”. I thought that the first time I saw you too, so just to help remind you that many people, if they even notice, think your eye is super cool.

  105. Hey, Karima! Thanks for sharing. You’ll never be “that girl with the spot in her eye” to me: I think you’re lovely and talented and brave for revealing such a personal experience. It’s perfectly fine to freak out—it’s your eye, after all, a pretty important organ! You’re doing the best you can for yourself, and that’s what’s important. You are a truly beautiful person inside and out, and I wish you nothing but the best.

  106. Hello Karima! I came to this post after your Q&A video and I have to say I didn’t even notice anything wrong with your eye until you mentioned it. It is not disgusting, truly. You are so beautiful, funny and charm that it fades away, it doesn’t define you at all. You are one of my favourite youtubers, and I follow a lot! Keep being that awesome! Greetings for Spain! ^^

  107. Karma, you’re beautiful don’t let this upset you there is a lot of love out there for you so don’t feel like your eye makes a huge difference in how much people love you. If you decide to operate do it for yourself not for anyone else. Love and peace

  108. I’m so sorry this is happening to you. You are incredibly beautiful and resilient. You will manage and make peace with whatever the eventual outcome is. I am not minimising it because I know it’s a big deal to you but honestly you can barely notice the mark and it does not at all detract from your beauty and who you are. I so enjoy your videos. Thank you for the time and energy you put into them. Your wonderful personality shines right through as well!

  109. You are the sweetest person in the world Karima, I am sorry beyond words that this has happened to you. No actually, scratch that, that this is happening to you. I honestly hope that you feel better and know thaz I and everyone else would freak out probably even more than you did if we had this kind of news broken to us, so you have a ton of understanding from me. Which, admittedly, is not much when put in retrospect, but I hope that if many of us tell you that you are beautiful and that you need not feel abnormal because you are a breath of fresh air in the blogger and youtube community. Much much love for you gorgeous, stay strong and always know that you have thousands of us watching your back, we will support you no matter what 🙂

  110. Hi Karima.

    I just got started in watching your Youtube videos, and I didn’t realize that there was something wrong with your eyes until your Q&A video.

    Yes, I notice the black in your eye, but I thought that it was just something that you were born with, nothing serious and definitely nothing wrong or “unpretty”.. I honestly thought that it was quite a cool feature of yours, like having freckles (which is something that I do have, quite a few of them, and I love it)… It made you different, interesting and unique!

    So if you feel that doing something about it has some risks, don’t do it! You look gorgeous, even more for having that little thing that nobody else does!

  111. Hi Karima,

    I am a mother of a beautiful 10 year old daughter who was born with strabismus. She was diagnosed with intermediate strabismus exotropia when she was about 4-5 months old. We started eye therapy when she was 6 months old (patching, eye exercises, etc.). After doing everything we could to help strengthen the muscles and trying to create a new path without surgery, we finally opted for surgery. As I’ve been told, this type of surgery will not correct the vision after the age of about 8 years old, it would be only for esthetic reasons at that point. Also, the doctor informed me that a second or third surgery is quite common. Anyway, it was scary as hell sending our precious 4 year old to have her eyes operated on! There is no guarantee of anything! But, the surgery was a success!! Her eyes are not drifting, she has clear vision and it only took one surgery. However, she is left with dark gray pigment spots on the outer part of both eyes… not hugely noticeable, but they are there. She is beautiful. She will always be beautiful. It was the best decision we ever made.
    I have sincere soft spot for your situation and I just want to wish you the best in any decision that you choose. You are beautiful. You will always be beautiful.

  112. You’ll always be gorgeous, no matter how your eye heals. But it still sucks that this happened, and you’re totally allowed to cry, sob and feel utterly depressed about this. I wish you feel better about this soon and it’s more than normal to feel this way about your eyes. They’re your eyes!! Don’t listen to anyone who makes you feel like you lack perspective. I hope you feel better soon. x

  113. From a subscriber ‘s perspective your eye is beautiful. When I spotted it I kind of thought ‘wow it’s like a beauty spot in your eye’. That’s all.

  114. Wow. How incredibly scary! It seems like you made the right decision to cancel the surgery – at least for now. I suppose you could always change your mind, if it comes to it? In any event, I just want to say, you are GORGEOUS and I have barely noticed anything wrong with your eyes – before or after the surgery. Honestly I’m not sure I ever noticed, if that is any consolation? Also, not necessarily relevant, but the actress Daniela Ruah (who is on NCIS LA, my latest guilty pleasure show lol) has a noticeable dark spot on one of her eyes, and i read that they have to pay more attention to lighting for it. In any event, my point is, don’t worry about it and just totally rock it! 🙂

  115. I’ve been following bazillion of youtube channels and makeup-beauty related blogs including very best of the best, the most famous ones. However there are seriously very few who are so fun to watch with a sense of humour, and that spark of intelligence..Watching your videos i thought that you are kind of the younger, livelier and more fun version of Lisa Eldridge. Nothing is “wrong” with your eye, hope it heals. you are awesome and i hope you keep the posts and videos coming 🙂

  116. Dear Karima,

    Just wanted to let you know that you are one of the most inspirational people I know of. You are absolutely beautiful, and I did’t even notice that there was something wrong with your eye until you mentioned it in your Q&A video. After reading this post I went back to your videos to check it out, and in all honesty, I just think it gives you even more character. You seem like such a lovely person and I really love your videos and blogposts. Whenever you are doing a tutorial or whatever, I just keep wondering to myself: can she get any more gorgeous!? And thats before you have put the makeup on.

    Be strong <3 Lots of love from me

  117. Ok, that clinches it. I have watched and loved your videos and read your reviews for months now. I think you are without doubt one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen. And you are funny, clever, talented and seem incredibly nice. I am sure I would like you if I ever met you. Not that that is likely, as I am in the UK. But after reading this post I have added you to my list of Inspirational People on the old facebook. I know it is a bit silly and just a small gesture, but I hope you understand it in the spirit in which it is intended. The only way I can express my support and deep felt admiration for you. Take care of yourself. Lots of love.

  118. I watched your question and answer video and saw that someone had questioned your eye issue. I have to tell you that I only noticed it on one occasion and do not think it detracts from your incredible beauty. Your eyes are so beautiful and truly, when I did see the mark, I thought it was something unique you were born with. You project such a playful, sweet persona in your videos and your upbeat personality is infectious. It is one of the reasons I love watching your videos. I hope that your eye continues to heal, but know that it does not detract from the lovely young woman that you are.

  119. Karima,

    You are absolutely stunning and nothing can detract from that. Please don’t let silly people bother you.

    I have a lazy eye and it’s just, ugh. My eyes were fine when I was born but when I was one or two, I had a bad fall and became cross-eyed, yay! I had to wear a patch to straighten my eyes and it worked, but now my eye can be lazy and it’s such a small thing but it really affects my self-esteem. I don’t like to look at people in the eyes (and sometimes I literally can’t, ha…) because I can’t help but think that all they see is my lazy eye. I’m always nervous that somebody will point it out. My optometrist has recommended surgery, and I know it’s a routine surgery but I’m still terrified of something going wrong. Sometimes I get annoyed at my baby-self for falling and causing this, how stupid is that?! It’s so frustrating, so I can kind of relate to you.

    I wish you all the best.

  120. Hi lovely Karima!
    I am a faithful follower of both your blog and youtube channel. I think you ‘re an amazing artist and a really witty person with a contagious joie de vivre. If you are kind enough to allow a completely unfamiliar person to you, I would like to give you some of my insight as I think it might appear to have some grains of truth here and there hopefully.
    If anyone of us, myself included of course, wanted to be judgemental and hurtful to somebody, we would choose to focus on tiny little details that seem unusual or unlikeable to us and then make a big fuss about it. Focus on a little, minor, silly thing so hard that all other aspects of a person disintegrate and all that’s left with is this only little thing that defines them. The thing we, the-judging-like-a-mofo, have chosen to define them.
    If some of us fail to understand something, or are quite curious about a person we only know from the internet, somebody which we haven’t established a real relationship with, we are somewhat hurtful. Let’s say not intentionally but still ignorantly hurtful as we don’t care about his/hers feelings and our feelings towards them don’t have an actual distinct ramification to our self esteem. We sleep pretty guilt-free at night, as we can’t testify the impact of our words, we ‘re not present in person in your everyday life. You can’t show us your anger, or sadness.. Ιt’s not an interactive relationship. We share the best part at all times, as you are left with all the worst parts at sometimes. You are left with mean feedback, insensitive, mousy messages, straight-forward kindergarden teasing. But there is still a pretty neat part.. unselfish love, kindness, respect and good feedback. This is the best part..
    I understand that trying to push back the critisism can get you down sometimes but try to hold on to the good tooth and nail. Push away all the negativity surrounding you. To me, being sad about the comments, is the expression of a deeper fear. And all of your anxiety and sadness is due to something you hide deeper inside. Should this sadness overwealm you, please try speaking to a psychologist about this. Thinking that you’d be memorable for a defect includes a specific inner fear. Look into yourself and try to make amends with that. I don’t understand why you should let a minor thing define you, when all that is you is so amazing and lovely as a whole.

    I’m sending you a big and warm virtual hug from sunny Greece and I wish that this situation, will unveil the best of you.


  121. Karima,
    While this is not a unique sentiment, I just wanted to let you know that I’m thoroughly inspired and entertained by your blog and videos. I’ve read and watched many times, and never noticed your eye being different. My purpose has always been to learn and admire, not to seek out barely discernible variations — all humans have the latter. I do understand and sympathize with feeling self-conscious and worrying about your health. I hope it helps to know you have so many fans around the world (I live in the U.S.) whose lives you touch positively, and I hope you’ll keep doing what you do so well. You are a lovely person, inside and out.

  122. You are still just as beautiful with the mark on your eye. People are probably staring at your beautiful makeup job, not your eye! Btw, Stila does have a pen similar to suqqu but sadly, there is no color like moss green.

  123. I also have a mark the on whites of my right eye, a blue birthmark to be exact. A lot of people have asked me if it was a black eye but no one has ever given me grief over it. I know that you are an internet personality and the internet can be a cruel place where strangers nitpick on every little thing on your face. Just think that in the real world, people won’t really care about it. I think you are absolutely beautiful, even with that mark on your eye. 🙂

  124. Karima,

    You are beautiful. Your eyes are gorgeous!
    I appreciate your generosity and willingness to share yourself and your awesome knowledge with us. Thank you for making a difference through beauty and makeup!

  125. I absolutely love your youtube channel, your quirky humour and amazing personality really is Te highlight of my day, and I honestly didn’t even notice your eye untill I saw it in your q&a video and then read this post! some people are just too critical!! keep doing what your doing it makes people like me very happy xxxxxxx

  126. Hi Karima,

    About half an hour ago I stumbled across your YouTube Chanel and watched your matt smokey eye vid. I noticed the mark on your eye and after already thinking what a beautiful girl you were I then thought how cool it was that you’d a black streak on your sclera. I’m so sorry you’ve had medical issues but think of it as a gap in your teeth like Lara Stone or huge eyebrows like Cara Delivigne… It makes you different but you should rock it because you’re gorgeous!

  127. I have enjoyed watching your videos/reading your blog for some time and admire your courage to tell us all what happened to you. Although yes I can see the affected area on your eye , I honestly don’t think it takes away from how beautiful you are. I dont know what the future holds, maybe in a few years there would be something that might help if you wanted to change it. What I do know is you are pretty no matter what and when ever I see your face I don’t think of the mark on the eye but that you look great and ALWAYS love the make-up you have done. Ignore the stupid haters on youTube or from whatever gutter they slither out from! Lou x

  128. Hi Karima,
    I understand how you feel. People are always judging us but I would like to think that this is because it is easier to look at others rather than themselves! I have a problem in my back and it is so hard to live with it and to live with pain (I dont use a bikini because I feel e,barrased). But I am trying to learn to live with this. Let me tell you that you are beautiful and brave! I love watching your tutorials. You seem a nice person and thats what really matters. Kisses from an argentinian fan!

  129. Hi Karima,

    I may be a bit late, but still I wanted to wish you good luck and I really hope everything is going okay and that you’re a bit closer to finding out what is wrong with your eye and general health. I understand how scared you must’ve been feeling when you wrote this, I hope you’ve heard some good news by now and that you’re feeling less anxious. Hopefully that tiny black spot on your eye (which doesn’t take away from your beauty at all) is the only thing you have to worry about!

    Love from a relatively new subscriber who is in love with your cheerfulness and personality!

  130. I did notice your eye in your videos (I won’t lie). But not for a second did I think “Eurgh, how disgusting!”
    I simply though “Huh.” and moved the hell on to watch your pretty face, I only noticed it in the first video- I will not pretend to understand how you feel, but as a subscriber and a fan, a small black mark on your eye doesn’t detract at all from the rest of you. I’ve never commented before but wanted to on this just so you can see how much support there is from all of us here.

  131. As a 40 year old mom of 3, I’ve just loved watching and learning from your videos. Experiencing the aging process, including changes in my eyesight, have not always been easy. In the end, I try to remember that I’m not beautiful in spite of my flaws, but because of them.

    May you find peace through your journey, gorgeous lady. You’re not alone.

  132. Hi Karima,
    My friend has a black spot in one of her eyes just as you have. But nobody cares about it and her eye sight is just as good as everybody else. To be honest, I actually start to think it looks so special and beautiful. I think you’re lucky to have it in your eye, seriously. Take it as a bless from the god.
    Btw, I think you are extremely talented and love reading your post and videos. Keep up blogging!

  133. Hi,
    I have just watched your vids back to back (I have only just found them and am trying to wear makeup for the first time at 44yrs old) Can I pls assure you I did not notice your eye.
    What I did notice was the incredible knowledge you have, your amazing teaching style (this old dog learnt a few new tricks) and your wonderful sense of humour.
    I enjoyed spending that time with you via your vids. I felt like I was having a friend over for a coffee (A friend the I can’t get a word in! ;0) )
    Ive lost my train of thought and now feel like Im a stalker!
    Anyway, your beautiful, talented, intelligent, can apply makeup beautifully AND funny. not fair.
    hugs to you.

  134. You’re very beautiful and utterly charming. You have the most flawless skin and big brown eyes. Wish you all the best!

  135. I’ve just watched your ’40s makeup tutorial [lovely!] as a visitor from Cora’s channel, so this is my first time seeing you. Honestly, I didn’t even notice your eye until the end of the video, and then I thought you had Nevus of Ota [a birthmark] like the actress Daniela Ruah, and didn’t think it was a big deal. The first thing that came to mind after reading this post is, maybe you could tattoo it? I don’t know if that would/could cause even more scarring, but tattooing eyeballs is a ‘thing’ people do for cosmetic reasons now, so if you’re really bothered perhaps you could mention it to your doctors and see what they think.

  136. Hi, i’m so sorry to read about what you went through.. But, if that can make you feel any better i had hardly noticed anything and i thought it was just some make-up leftovers on your tear dunk.
    Really, the people (or haters i might say) who criticized it, only did it cause it was the only thing (so little as it is) that they could see, the rest being so pretty. They had nothing to criticize so they took the smaller thing that was quite different..
    Have a nice night (it’s midnight in Paris and i absolutely don’t know what time it is in Australia..)

  137. Hi, Karima!

    I just saw your 1940s tutorial (made my way over via Shannon and Chloe), and I subscribed right away! I loved hearing about the extensive research you put into the look, and your tutorial demeanor is lovely and refreshing.

    This post was linked in the comments of that video, and after reading it, I had to comment because I can completely relate. I am, at this very moment, recovering from eyelid surgery that I had four days ago. It was my fifth one. Long story:

    I have eyelid ptosis (drooping) in both my eyes, but it was more noticeable in my left. I had it fixed when I was 16, but the condition returned (I’m now 24). It was to the point that my peripheral vision and depth perception were drastically affected, and I couldn’t open the eye all the way without consciously using my forehead muscles to lift it. And of course, aesthetically, it made me extremely self conscious.

    I decided to get it fixed again, but went to a different surgeon because I’ve moved cities since the first surgery. The surgeon used a different technique, and he WAY over-corrected. He attempted to fix it (surgery #3), and not only failed again to get the lid height right, he also messed up the crease of my left eye—it basically wrinkled open without a single crease all the way across—and damaged the muscle responsible for closing the eye (it comes open when I sleep now).

    Devastated, I went back to the original surgeon (drove 4 hours to my old city). He said he could *try* to fix what the new surgeon had done, but that it would be very difficult for him, and painful for me. Plus, the damage to my left eye muscle is permanent—to avoid injuring my cornea, I will have to use patches and eye ointment when I sleep for the rest of my life.

    That surgery (#4) was….an experience. I had to be fully awake, and because of all the scar tissue from previous surgeries, he couldn’t numb everything he needed to cut/burn/stitch. It was extremely painful. Miraculously, though, he managed to fix as much as was possible to fix. Unfortunately, as the left eye healed, the ptosis manifested in my right eye, and that is what I had to have corrected a few days ago (surgery #5). My eyes will likely never be truly symmetrical, and there is no guarantee that even after all this, the ptosis won’t return.

    I guess I just wanted to share this story with you because I know how lonely and scary it is to go through something like this, especially when it’s your *eyes*. I know that awful feeling in the pit of your stomach as you’re trying to accept the fact that a part of you is permanently damaged. I know how it feels to have people do a double-take at your face, how part of you wants to explain and part of you wishes you just didn’t have to. And I know how it feels for people to not have that much sympathy because, sure, there are worse problems…but at the end of the day, you’re the one that has to live with it, not them.

    I guess I just wanted you to know that it made *me* feel better to hear your story and see you still enjoying makeup and doing what you do so well, and I thought my story might help you feel better, too. I think you made a wise and mature choice to not have the scar tissue operated on—I wish I had been so discerning. You’re a talented artist and a beautiful lady, and I’ll be binge-watching all your videos between rounds of frozen peas on my eyes :).

    Wishing you all the best.

    1. Hey Erin,

      I was just reading through all these comments and yours really jumped at me. You said it all better than I did 🙂 I wanted to let you know that your story makes me feel much better, thank you so much for taking the time to comment <3

      I'm sending you all the good vibes, I hope you (and your eyes!) are doing awesome.


  138. I have noticed your eye once before in a video but it didn’t stop me thinking you are one of the most naturally beautiful people on YouTube xx

  139. Life’s obstacles and how you face them become the very fabric of who you are and the greatest gift you could ever give yourself is to take the lesson and believe that you now stand apart from the rest for your clarity. Don’t let negative passing take away from your confidence. Your eyes are precious most to you. What anyone else thinks or has to say is invisible if they don’t have an audience.

  140. Are you kidding me?! That black spot on your eye is one of my favorite parts about your face! It literally frames your eye when you look straight on and it’s super striking. To be quite honest I just thought it was stitches but the more I look at it the more I don’t think I would hate it if I had it. People are mean so stop listening to them. You are super cute and super sweet and ain’t nobody got time for other people’s negativity girl.

  141. I only noticed your eye being different when you said in a video (I think neon lip one?) that you couldn’t do eye makeup with your eye and I wondered what was wrong (in a “I hope you’re okay!” way) and I know it must be scary and also upsetting because people can be so judgemental and pick on people’s ‘flaws’ when honestly, why on earth does it matter? I hope your surgery has helped your other problems, that sounds horrible. Thank you so much for continuing your videos and being so brave and honestly brightening my day so much and giving such great advice 🙂 Lots of love and.. health wishes? I can’t think of the normal way to say that! xx

  142. I simply think that you’re beautiful, and that little black line in your eye is a particular part of you, which distinguishes you even more! Don’t care about bad people, they’re ignorant and superficial. Go on this way, take care of yourself but also enjoy life! I watch you because I like the way you are and I don’t mind AT ALL of your eye. What I see from your eyes is smiles and sweetness.

  143. I just wanted to echo what’s been said here and that a) I do feel a little relief knowing what the black line is because I was worried it was something that would affect your life negatively as opposed to a side-effect of the *solution* to something that was affecting your life negatively! And b) my first impression of your appearance was total gorgeousness of the type that is very rare–model good looks + impish personality that makes people think they have a shot at getting close to you. 😉 I think your eye only makes you seem even more beautiful than without it by way of intrigue and a dash of the wabi-sabi that most top models seem to possess as well. I hope you not only keep it even if medical science advances to the point it doesn’t feel as risky to try to remove it, but also learn to love and own it!

  144. Hello! I’ve just started watching your YouTube channel. I think it took me a couple of videos to notice the spot on your eye. I was checking out some of your old tutorials and you mentioned surgery in one and a blog in the other, and I was like HMMMMMMMM…

    So that’s how I found my way here. I just wanted to thank you for sharing your story. My mom recently had some funky eye issues because of a surgery, and she also opted out of the surgery to correct it. I don’t blame either of you.

    So thanks again. And for what it’s worth, I think it makes you look pretty bad ass. 🙂

  145. I just stumbled across your videos today & ended up watching quite a few of them (definitely gonna try some of the looks out!), & I couldn’t help but notice your eye, but at first I had thought you had makeup in them (something similar happened to me once when I got liquid eyeliner in my eye), but it wasn’t going away, so I knew it wasn’t makeup. I don’t blame you for not going through with the scaleral graft surgery-it’s just something that makes you unique, & I know that it’s a cliché & you’re probably tired of hearing it, but it’s true.

  146. Hello Karima. I’ve seen your videos for quite some time and I didn’t know what was going on with your eye until few minutes ago that I found this post. I’m happy for you because you are healthy after the surgery (that’s the most important thing) and I didn’t want to pass the chance to tell you to please forget about that black spot. You are not just a little black spot on your eye but a beautiful girl with lots of good qualities which are way more important than any flaw you might have. Don’t let that black spot put you down because at the end of our lives you won’t be remembered for such meaningless things. What you do to others, the way you inspire people like me, your beautiful smile which shines from within, your kindness and positive personality… that’s the real deal. You ARE beautiful, with or without a black spot, with strabism or without it. We all have features that we don’t fully enjoy but… fuck it!! Let’s pay attention to the positive ones and forget what we cannot change or control. Enjoy your whole body, embrace and accept your flaws as part of your life and emphasize and rejoice all the beautiful things you hold. As Pink sings: “Pretty pretty please, don’t you ever ever feel that your less than fucking perfect”.

  147. Karima,

    I came across your blog a few days ago by chance and was smitten by your beauty and knowledge. The richness of information on your blog is invaluable. Thank you for doing what you do!

    Listen girlie, black spot or no black spot, you are drop dead gorgeous and no black spot can take that away from you. So don’t ever let anyone’s silly comments get to you. You are beautiful, and special, and to many of us one of a kind with your special mark. You are a doll, spot or no spot. Hugs.

  148. This Sir Francis Bacon quote always gives me comfort: “There is no excellent beauty that hath not some strangeness in the proportion.” So when I get down about the rosacea that sometimes causes my face to look red and blotchy, I try to remember Bacon’s words.

    And no, I expect he never had to live with scar tissue on his sclera, or rosacea, but I love the sentiment – that if you embrace your “strangeness” and refuse to apologize for it, then it becomes a kind of beauty.

  149. I came here out of curiosity on the spot, even thought it was a tattoo. I did not think why you would have received offensive. Crazy. I love your videos and that spot is just something you, as a mole that goes. We must be grateful, you have two eyes and look good, is what matters, and on top are very nice. Like mine, brown and 7 diopters, but are nice haha. I will keep alert to new videos!

  150. That little black spot?? You are so beautiful it is barely noticeable. We almost all have something that affects our self esteem. I do understand the anxiety it must have caused you but you really need to know you are gorgeous as is, and based on the previous comments I’m not the only one who thinks so!

  151. I can’t imagine that you didn’t cry at least a couple of times reading these comments. I already have and I only read the first 20. Such wonderful people out there who admire your courage and tutorials and personality and add one more to that list, strong woman!

  152. Karima!!! I was born with black/greysh spots on my eyes. Both of them. More than one spot! My eyes work, life is beautiful even with spotty eyes, don’t bother! People who find it disgusting don’t deserve your attention. You probably find it annoying because you weren’t born with it, but you’ll make an habit of that tiny black spot and stop seeing it. And remember: you are not the only girl with black spots in her eyes! 😉

  153. Hi Karima, I admire you sooo much, thank you for this post (I haven’t noticed anything wrong about your eye 🙂 Love your work and all your video. I’ve keratocone on both eyes and makeup help me to hide the “difference” of my left eye (since my cornea transplant anyone can see a diference on my face… me too 🙁 that’s why I love makeup, it’s magic ! Wish you all the best, keep smiling and don’t care to what stupid people can say because, thank to you, we don’t feel alone. Sorry for the mistake I could write, but I’m french and my English isn’t excellent !

  154. I just stumbled across this post after seeing it on a comment on one of your videos and feel compelled to comment. I absolutely love your videos. You are drop dead beautiful and give off such a confident vibe; something I wish I could do. I was definitely surprised to read that you worried about the appearance of your eye. Although I noticed it, I never thought twice about it. I wouldn’t even consider it a flaw.

    Anyway, just wanted to let you know that this post was really reassuring to me and I can definitely relate to the feeling of only being remembered/known as the girl with something wrong with her face. I’ve got a birthmark on my nose. Something about the face makes everything so much worse! I’ve always been really self conscious about it and have had surgery to remove it. I’ve had to have 2 procedures for it to scar as little as possible and am due the final one in August. Obviously there’s still going to be a small scar left though. Hopefully my story can provide a comfort in numbers as yours did to me.

    I hope it doesn’t bother you too much because it doesn’t affect your beauty at all. Much love. Xxx

  155. Your eye is really beautiful, “flaw” or not! I’ve watched your posts for a while but I only noticed that today in a video. I was concerned when I saw it, but knowing what it is it’s fairly cool, like an extraordinary battle scar. And I really don’t think you’re “memorable only for a flaw” – you’re very pretty and you have an unusual eye. If there was a character like you in a book, people would complain that she was unrealistically given the trait to appear more cool.

    All this aside, I’m really sorry to hear about the stress of your cancelled surgery and your second opinion. Medical procedures are a really big deal and I don’t blame you for being frightened, especially with something so unusual having happened. You aren’t vain to care about your appearance, either, especially when so many people have brought it to your attention and made you feel insecure for it.

  156. Hi Karmia,
    You are gorgeous and like many of these people I too never noticed the spot. You are so beautiful, intelligent, fabulous, talented, a great teacher and I trust your makeup advice more than any other online. You are always honest and now brave for telling the world. Those things are so much more important than a spot in the eye. I don’t profess to know how you feel but I can see that it is really distressing for you. Just keep on being your fabulous self. I have a noticeable flaw too and I used to hate it – I wanted it removed even though the doctors said no. Now it is like an old friend. It’s there and I don’t hate it. It’s just another part of me. The human body is not perfect – it takes so much courage and strength for you to discuss how you feel and it’s actually quite inspiring. Girl keep doing what you are doing. You are a stunning and fabulous woman xxxx

  157. I just foundyour videos on YouTube, and I’m so thrilled that I have. You are so smart and funny and extremely helpful.

    I’m sorry for the trouble and stress of the surgeries. And for the trolls of YouTube.
    You’re fantastic and I can’t wait to marathon all your videos and then make a playlist of my favorites “greatest hits!!”

    Easy to refer to when doing my own makeup.
    Thank you for sharing and I can’t wait to see what you do next!!

  158. Hi Karima!
    I know this is an old post so I hope this finds you well! But I actually never noticed your eye until I saw it in the YouTube comments that you posted about it on your blog while I was watching your older videos for inspo. But I felt compelled to find this post and share my story with you. I do not have the same issue you have. I actually was born with a birthmark in the white of my eye. It started as a thin black/blue/purple ring around my entire iris. As I’ve gotten older, it has pretty much almost engulfed the entire white of my right eye. I get asked about it constantly. People assume I have a contact in that moved, that I have mascara in my eye, that I have a bruised eye, etc. when I was younger I struggled with this soooo much. Those seem like such harmless questions but when you’re self conscious about something, they feel like daggers. I’m not sure why it bothered me so much, but I’m sure it’s the same feeling you have about your eye. I have to now go in every year to make sure it doesn’t become cancerous and always be extremely careful in the sun. Somewhere along the lines of my senior year of high school, I began to embrace the uniqueness. I know yours isn’t something you were born with so you probably have different feelings about it. But I wanted to let you know that you’re not alone and you shouldn’t feel embarrassed or disgusted by it. There’s more of us out here constantly struggling with the invasive questions. Yours are unfortunately just public. I hope this can help in some way. Thank you for sharing your story because it has definitely helped me!

    1. Megan I really, really hope you see this- I just had to say something because my best friend has Sclera Pigmentation that she was born with and I know exactly what you’re talking about! Hers looks like someone pipetted blue, grey and lilac water colours onto her eye and let them gently swirl together like oil sitting on top of water and I tell her all the time how beautiful I think it is and I am certain that yours is every bit as beautiful.
      It’s so strange that society has decided for us how our bodies should be, how they should react to environmental and developmental factors and therefore what is “normal” and everything else is a “defect”. Except its not. There’s nothing defective about it. We don’t call diamonds mineral defects; they’re admired for their rare beauty. It’s not defective that either you or Karima have pigmentation outside of your irises. It’s not defective that my cousin happened to be born with one arm. And seeking medical intervention in those things if you want to isn’t an admission that it’s a bad thing either, people just should be uplifted by those around them that they are beautiful exactly as they are, not pressured into going through surgery to be “normal”. It’s not anyone else’s place but your own to decide what happens with your body and what it should look like and how that should be achieved.
      It breaks my heart to read Karima say she worries she disgusts people. Anyone who can be disgusted by how someones body has healed or been formed is the disgusting person in my opinion. It is our differences and quirks that make us beautiful, not all being homogenous-looking. I hope you both feel at peace with your beautiful bodies, and Megan I will be showing my best friend your comment so she knows someone else that has it too! 🙂 Sending positive vibes that it never turns into anything more serious than a beauty mark xx

  159. I just wanted to comment about this post of your eye situation…you are beautiful and i even thought that was a birth mark ,which i found super cool. All you have to do is let the time passed and maybe you would feel different about it, it is almost 2 years since you developed the complication..How do you feel about it now?

  160. Sometimes when we find our purpose and our calling in life and we benefit others and shine in our natural habitat, the devil will take a little piece of that to make us feel vulnerable and self conscious and even depressed. The enemy loves it when we are angry and think things like how could God let this happen to me?? But I feel led to tell you what an inspiration you are and that if you would put your trust and hope in God, he will take you places you could never imagine. He is that secure place when we feel broken. Whether it be a tiny spot in an eye which to you may seem big, but let me assure you it should never stop you from your purpose. ?

  161. Karima I’m so sorry. That must be very scary and difficult. I just have to say, I know what you mean about not wanting to be known for a “flaw.” I was in an accident as a child and my whole life since then I have lived with a damaged front tooth. For sixteen years it was very noticeable. In a way I learned to live with it but still people did make rude comments, even my friends, not knowing how it can hurt. I eventually saved up to see a specialist and they were able to improve it a bit cosmetically but because of how it was damaged there is no real fix. It’s still quite obvious and it’s right in the center of my face. But you know these things are never as obvious or as bad looking to others as we think they are. You are beautiful just the way you are, and in the end health is the important thing like you said. I wish you all the best.

  162. Hi Karima, sorry to hear about your eye – I’m sure you are still beautiful and hope it has healed well. I have had surgery on my left eye for ptosis which has left me with awful scarring and now the eye looks completely deformed (ironically much worse than it did before!). Every time I look in the mirror I feel like kicking myself for getting the op and wish I had left it alone!
    I guess we can only do what we feel is best with the info we have at the time.

    Sending you warm wishes.

  163. Hi Karima–I’m sorry to hear about your eye. I know this post is probably older but I only just found your channel this week and I love it! I enjoy makeup and you give such wonderful tutorials. You seem genuine and are funny, so it’s just a lot of fun to watch and I learn a lot. Anyway, you are so pretty and talented…honestly the last thing I would notice would be your eye. Your personality and beauty is what shows up. Just hope that your eye remains healthy and that’s all that matters. Sounds like you made the right medical decision. Hang in there and I really enjoy your videos. Today I felt like I looked so much better at work just using some of your makeup tips. Thanks!

  164. Hi Karima,
    I never post comments on anything but I have to say your eye situation is part of what drew me to your blog/youtube channel. You are so confident, funny and beautiful. My 5 month old daughter has irregularly shaped pupils and although she is clueless and perfectly content, I fret about it all the time. Seeing a young woman with a slightly irregular look who is perfectly lovely and works in the beauty world no less, gives me hope that she won’t be too bothered by it. Also, your vids and posts are so helpful! I’m off to buy foundation right now.

  165. This could work for you however, from a marketing perspective, we all have ‘flaws’ and I personally like to watch makeup tutorials to at least make the best of what I have. I thought on noticing your eye, it was rather exotic colouring, in that it was genetic. It’s unique, and does not impair your looks at all. Embrace your uniqueness.

  166. Hi Karima,
    I just wanted to tell you that I discovered you on YouTube a few days ago and I cannot stop watching you. I love your minimalist techniques and today I applied foundation with my fingers and felt so confident. You are awesome and completely lovely and elegant. A breath of fresh air, if you will. I thought the discoloration on your eye was simply a birthmark and thought nothing of it after that. I wish you well and I can’t wait to keep watching your tutorials.

  167. New comment on an old post! I’ve been binge watching you and Sharon! I had wondered recently about your eye upon noticing it but would NEVER in a million years ask because my momma didn’t raise me that way! Ha! I do hope you can find someway to get it fixed for yourself, not because it looks bad, but because it will make you feel better. You are absolutely one of the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen so regardless of the outcome, that will not change! Not at all the same as your situation, but I have hooded eyes and one eye is way more hooded than the other and I hate it. My husband and friends swear they don’t notice but I don’t know how they cannot! One eyebrow seems to arch more than the other because of it. I’ve been looking into surgical procedures for that one eyelid but am a little apprehensive because it is my eye. But every time I look in the mirror or look at a picture of myself, I’m like oh hey that one eye looks way droopier than the other and I hate it! Not nearly as dramatic as your situation but I’m entitled to my vanity as are you! Still, you’re lovely no matter what!

  168. Hi Karima! I was just wondering…would it be at all possible to get some contacts for that eye that would cover the dark spot, so that at the very least you can cover it up if you want to? I know that contact lenses don’t generally work that way, but it was just a thought. You know we all think you are beautiful, intelligent and an awesome person all round, but if there is something bothering you then that’s something we wish we could all fix too x

  169. Karima, you are an amazing young woman, full of talent and intelligence and all the good in the world. Rock on girl, I know I will be following you as long as you choose to share your content with us!

  170. Hi Karima, I just saw you for the first time today. It was a Chloe Morello referral and I thought what a lovely, articulate, clearly intelligent and informed young woman you are. You have certainly been through an ordeal and I believe you have emerged stronger and more confident and I think your decision not to pursue more surgery is a sound one. Your eye makes you unique and merely adds to your obvious beauty which I can tell is also within. May you continue to charm and inform your vast audience for years to come. ? Xo

  171. If it’s just cosmetic, I wouldn’t do a thing. I think those kinds of “flaws” are really what make people unique and interesting. Scars- physical, emotional, mental, etc. are part of our life stories.

  172. You are beautiful and elegant. Your eyes are beautiful. Be happy with so many other blessings you have and others dont. Much loves.